Josh and Allayna McCann

Livin' Wild & Free...

2011-09-10T14:26:00.000-06:00

As a lot of my family knows, ever since I was in middle school, I LIVED and BREATHED my dream of modeling. I watched what I ate down to each crumb, only drank water, did about 200 crunches a day, watched every single Victorias Secret Fashion Show and did my best to make sure I looked as perfect as I could...for YEARS! In fact, well into my 20's and even still to this day to some extent. I can firmly say I never had any type of eating disorder nor would I even dare go to that extent but I cried the day the scale hit 110lbs. Needed to cut back even more...this was who I needed to be.

not so much anymore...

Believe it or not, Crystal Renn is a plus-sized model. I know now that I would much rather look like her and be happy than stress about every meal to look like Miranda Kerr. I'm 27, I have realized that I was trying so SO hard in the past that I really missed out on a lot and wasted so much thought and energy about what I put into my mouth. I know now that my efforts to be "so healthy" were infact not healthy at all. I placed so many restrictions on myself that I really never noticed until I married Josh. Josh is an amazing cook, he loves who I am inluding what I feel are my "imperfections." I still try to eat healthy but I love LOVE a good ice cold Coke and a big slice of a hearty veggie pizza. To be honest, for years, I really got sick of everyone pointing out how "skinny" I am. Its an awkward compliment that I never really knew how to respond to. I feel now that since I'm slowly creeping up on 30, that I would like to look like a grown woman-as funny as that sounds! I'm kinda ready and have accepted growing some hips and not worrying so much about how I "think" I look. It's pretty liberating to be honest. In no way shape or form am I letting myself go just livin' a little wild and free right now, that's all!

What a summer!

2011-08-24T19:06:00.000-06:00

I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted! Oh my gosh, I don't even know where to begin. This has been the summer of all summers- so much going on, so many birthdays and 2 big job changes!

To start off with, I got a new job! I've previously been in the mortgage business for several years before Josh and I got married. Due to school and with how often we moved- every 6 months, literally- we have finally settled down here in Dallas...Lewisville specifically. We love it here! Anyway, back to the job. I came across the CEO of my old company who is now the VP of Nationstar Mortgage. He encouraged me to send over a resume and interview with them to see what happens. At first, it seemed as though they didn't care to interview me and when they did, I didn't get much feedback. I kinda got a little deflated but before I knew it- I had calls offering me a great position! I was surprised! They weren't even starting me out in entry level- they put me on a team of 5 out of 1200 people to work one of Nationstar's biggest, most important portfolios they hold! I have loved every minute of it- it's VERY hard work with VERY high expectations but I have had nothing but positive reviews from upper management. Being in the mortgage business is so difficult because their future is basically in your hands! They are trusting in me as their only hope to keep their family from being homeless but it's also very rewarding when you have their complete trust and cooperation.

As for Josh, he's is doing great! He's always so positive and motivated in the goals he sets for himself. He's had quite a few challenges this summer that were out of his control but he has grabbed ahold of those reigns and changed his course a little bit and is getting himself back on track almost effortlessly. Poor thing, we've had record breaking heat this summer which is STILL continuing...going on 60+ days, I think, of 100+ degree temperatures. I admire his dedication to his job and being successful despite how hard these days have been on him. I just love him so much! He also has begun classes again to finish up his last year of school. This year, it will be all online classes through Weber State. It's a little different for him but it works perfectly for our situation.

We both celebrated birthdays this month...well not so much "celebrated" but HAD birthdays this month. I'm 27 and he turned 25. In the life of employed adults- birthdays just take a back seat to the days work schedule. We may sneak away soon for a little weekend/downtown-stay and chill out. We both need it severely! On another note, we plan to start looking for a house here very soon! We are so excited and we're looking at potential cities to live in and what we're looking for in our new home. We can't wait to see whats out there!

As for Leo? Well, he's still Leo. Only cares about getting his treat in the mornings and waiting by the door for us when we get home and of course, cuddling as close as he can to us every night. We both still love him as though he was our son...pathetic, I know, but you pet owners know exactly what I'm talking about.

Other than this, not much has changed. Except for we moved again since we got here in April but thats nothing different. Its only our 6th or 7th move since we've been married. Understand yet why we're so excited to look for a house?? Yeah...

Oh, Happy Day...

2011-06-14T20:03:00.000-06:00

I actually have a few things to post about this time! Impressive, eh? First off, I have not publicly congratulated my Mavs on their 2011 NBA Championships! I never have really kept up with any sport or even cared to watch it unless it's basketball...but not JUST basketball; MAVS basketball! This has been such a GREAT season and the playoff series was UNBELIEVABLE! Every single game was sooo close and just when you think the Mavs might not pull it off...don't walk away because they had a thing about coming in the during the last 2-3 minutes nailing every shot, ultimately winning the game! They are such classy players, their heads are in the game and not on money and endorsements, and they back eachother up! Something most teams can't do, especially the Heat! Congrats Coach Carlisle, Dirk, Jet, Kidd, Barea, and everyone else...you make Dallas proud!

On another great note, I finally got a job! A good job! A job that will help us get the kind of home we've been looking for and SOON! It's working for a mortgage company, which is nothing new to me but it's a great company, a company that isn't going anywhere anytime soon. A few people from my old job are even starting jobs there too which is awesome!!! I start on Thursday and of course, Ill have to train for about a week to learn their computer system but I am so excited. Great benefits, great pay and PLENTY of room for growth! Josh and I feel so content with life right now. These past few years have been nothing but stressful with moving every 4-6 months, no stability and very unpredictable when trying to plan for our future. Now it's basically unfolded before us and we couldn't be more pleased with how things have and will turn out.

One last VERY great note...I have been reunited with a childhood favorite called Bahama Bucks. THE BEST SNOWCONES IN THE COUNTRY, with the exception of Hawaii. Ha! Josh is in love...I am in love. They will be seeing us A LOT! And the best part of all, it's only 2 miles away from where we live!!! Should I be worried? Noooo, of course not. Should they be worried?

Yes, absolutely.

Grateful

2011-05-30T11:21:00.001-06:00

Gratefulness has been the primary adjective that has described my life these past few years. I have so much to be thankful for. A wonderful husband who works so hard to provide for us and our dreams and who would do anything and everything to make me happy. We have wonderful families who support us and provide advice and direction when we need it. I'm thankful for the job opportunities we have come across the past few years that have helped contribute to our dreams of having a home, future family and the freedoms of being able to spend time together. I'm extremely thankful for our health and strength that we have to pursue our goals and things that are set before us. I grateful for my cat, Leo, he is the most sensitive animal who loves to just cuddle when you need a hug. He always puts a smile on my face. I am thankful for our countries freedoms that we enjoy and the ability we have to pursue an education, worship where we choose, and where women can participate and be as equal as men. I am thankful for the trials that I have endured, they have definately helped me to grow as a person and to reshape my perspective on life and who I am. I am grateful for being grateful, how hard would it be going through life not being grateful? I think it's so important to recognize your blessings because without those, we have nothing.

“When you are grateful, fear disappears and abundance appears”- Anthony Robbins

Happy Memorial Day, thank you to all the men and women who do what you do and face challenges every minute of every day for our country. Stay safe and may you return to your homes soon.

Oprah emailed me!!!

2011-05-26T08:55:00.002-06:00

I sent Oprah a quick email yesterday, thanking her for all the years of inspiration and dedication to her fans. Not expecting a response, I woke up this morning seeing an email in my inbox from "Oprah Winfrey" entitled, "Thank You."

I couldn't get it to download onto this thing so I'll just copy and paste...

Thank you
Thursday, May 26, 2011 12:00 AM
From: This sender is DomainKeys verified "Oprah Winfrey" oprah@oprah.com
To: a.ladner@SBCGLOBAL.NET

Allayna,
Got your email.

Thank you for watching the finale. I could feel your beating hearts, along with mine, through the TV screen.
I'm off to take a little rest, and then I'll get busy working on OWN.

Take care of yourself.

I'll write soon,
Oprah

"In your own way, you can illuminate the world"

2011-05-25T17:17:00.002-06:00

In this day and age, a great amount of respect has been lost. Hopes have been shattered; dreams, smothered. Faith remains with few but only by a mere fiber.

As rare as it has become, there are a few great people in this world. Great examples on how to be human who continue to have hope, faith and respect for humanity.

I am inspired by the example of Oprah Winfrey. Her selflessness, diligence and love for all mankind. She sees nothing but hope in each day, each event and in each life she encounters. I may not ever have my own television show, millions of dollars, or the profoundness she has in speaking but through observation; that is all irrelevant when it comes to making a difference in the world of others.

Where are the rest of the "Oprah's" of our world? Do they exist? We can only hope. I know that I have a renewed perspective in the ability I have to make a difference in someones life. I will try each day to be a better person than I was yesterday. I will see the suns rays through the rain and I most definitely will not give up on myself and the things I wish to achieve.

"What I knew for sure from this experience with you is that we are all called. Everybody has a calling, and your real job in life is to figure out what that is and get about the business of doing it."

I endlessly thank you for that example and inspiration...

Wah-lah!!

2011-05-08T11:29:00.000-06:00

Remember the necklace from the previous post?? So, instead of spending $300, which I wouldn't do anyway because that's just ridiculous, I paid $5.50 for this beauty! I love being a thrifty shopper, it's so fun!

Things I love at the moment.

2011-05-06T15:52:00.002-06:00

Doesn't this bed look so cozy?!! I could lay in bed with my babe all day in this thing!!!

I've always been a huge fan of bohemian peasant tops, this one, I adore...

I know it's summer and 90 degrees already but I love these MASSIVELY chunky scarves.

Um, this chair is beautiful! So simple but so chic and fabulous and the same time- a motto I strive to live by though chic and fabulous may not always be appearant.

Navajo beads...I know, I'm Choctaw but still...I love this necklace! Wouldn't this look great with my many pairs of jeans and white T's?? Yeah, I thought so too.

I want this quilt! I'm a huge fan of cozy'ing up in a good blanket no matter what time of the year it is and this one is adorable! I love these colors. I need to learn to sew...BAD!

I need a place to go so I can wear this dress, pronto! SO FABULOUS and this just so happens to be my favorite style/fit of a gown. In love!

Oh my, serenity! I could not live without a bath tub and this my friends, I MIGHT just die whether I do get one or not!

You might say I have too much time on my hands but I have replaced spending the majority of my free time on Facebook to looking at the things that make me happy and help me use my creative juices! I have an entire list of crafts that I NEED to complete by the end of the summer! Ooh, it makes me so happy...

Where has the time gone?!

2011-04-28T10:16:00.002-06:00

It's been awhile since I've had actual events take place to blog about...usually it's just my ramblings! Where to begin...

My parents, grandparents, aunt and uncle came to Utah a few weeks ago to celebrate my sister, Devin's graduation from Dental Hygiene school. My mom booked a vacation home for all of us at the Sundance Resort and had so much fun! It was so good to have everyone together and to just chill out and enjoy being together. As of late, all of our get togethers have consisted of weddings where everything is so rushed that we hardly get to sit down and enjoy it! Dad took some family pictures...

Josh and I also finished up a semester at Weber State. I have to say that Weber is by far the best school to attend. I have nothing but good things to say about it. I took a few of my harder classes and still managed to get nothing less than a B+. No need to ask Josh how he did though because he'll probably tell you he got a 4.0 before you even ask! I'm so jealous...I wish it was as easy for me! ha.

We also, right after my family's visit and finals, packed up our lives and moved again. Yes, again! Our lives are never boring, thats for sure. But we are finally back in Texas. After much excitement and anticipation, it feels SO GOOD to be back home. We are living in Lewisville which is about 30 minutes north of downtown and 30 minutes north of my parents. We're all settled and are managing to put together our summer routines again. This summer is going to be an amazing summer! We have so much hope in meeting our goals this year and it's completely comforting. Josh is loving his transition to the new alarm sales comapany, Elite Home Security and they have been nothing but great and so accomodating for us. We also have some other really GREAT news that has to do with this job but I won't share just yet until it's finalized and Josh gives me the okay to announce it.

My sister, Dev and her husband, Dallas will be moving here in the next few weeks as well!!! They will live in Plano which is 20 minutes north of where we are. SO CLOSE!!! We have tons of plans for crafts and pool days...it's going to be so fun to spend this summer together since we were always so busy before that we rarely got to see one another.

Yes, we still have Leo. He travels where ever we go...he basically doesn't leave our sides. Literally. Even when you take a shower, he's sitting on the bath mat until you get out. We still love him to death and it's so funny to see Josh and him "bond" after Josh has been at work all day. He's still currently our only child and will be for the next little while. Our home would be empty without him.

Other than this, it's all I can think of at the moment...there's bound to be more posts soon. Summer's are always full of good times.

Oh, the places we want to go...

2011-04-08T23:36:00.000-06:00

White Villages in Santori, Greece

and here...

Italy

“One’s destination is never a place, but a new way of seeing things.”

Henry Miller

Vegan? What is that? and why?!

2011-03-28T19:52:00.000-06:00

When I was in middle school/high school, I was very conscious about what I put in my mouth. Some people might think, "that's too much to think about" or "that takes the fun out of eating." I'll be the first to attest that "no it's not" and "no it's not." Even if it was, isn't that a good thing...I mean, HELLO?! You're putting that stuff in your body! That's what keeps you alive...or what's going to kill you, I'll let you decide. I have never felt more active/energetic and more content with my body than I did during those years. Those are the years that are most awkward for us but I took pride in how I looked, felt and most importantly, my eating habits.

Well, here I am, give or take 10 years later and feeling so unsatisfied with myself. Not necessarily my looks (because that's not necessarily what this is about) but more in my energy level, the realization that aging is going to start kicking in any day now, and especially because I'm going to bear children in the not too distant future. I feel the need for change. I need to step it up and off the laziness scale and get with it again.

Don't get me wrong, I have loved a good burger or a good sandwich...but in almost every instance, I get the nagging feeling that "I shouldn't have eaten that" or "I'm going to have to work out 5x's as hard for that 5 minutes of pleasure." It's to the point that those thoughts aren't worth what initiated it to begin with.

With that said, I have decided to alter my eating habits. Starting this morning for breakfast, I became a vegan. Something I've wanted to do for years but since marrying a carnivore who loves to cook, almost made it impossible. Well I'm doing it anyway. I need to do it for me. Don't worry babe, Ill still cook you meat...I just don't want any part of it. I won't miss it. I haven't been the biggest fan of meat for a long time so I don't feel like I'm going without at all. The only thing I won't have is meat, dairy and eggs or anything that contains animal products. Totally fine by me! It's almost like a detox really, because most of the fat American's eat is from those things I'll be cutting out.

I've had a few people bring up the point, "isn't that against the commandments" or "that's why God gave us animals." Well murder, especially the way today's factory farmhouses "prepare animal products" is against the commandments. I'll spare you the details but really, the production of today's animal products is, what I'm sure, the way God didn't intend.

I'm not looking for disputes, or reasons why I shouldn't do this; I simply wanted to share why I CHOSE to do this. :)

A little about me at this moment...

2011-03-24T19:30:00.001-06:00

Candy: DOVE Milk Chocolate or Chewy Sweet Tarts. The Sweet Tarts are long time favorite; my daddy always buys me one...)

Soda: strictly Coca-Cola! Although, I don’t have one everyday. Absolutely none of that diet stuff...

Show: anything on HGTV, I get so many good design ideas! I love the Kardashians too…

Favorite I-Pod Playlist: “Current Fav’s”

Sia- Breathe Me

Mumford and Sons- entire “Sigh No More” album

The Asteroid Galaxy Tour- The Golden Age

Better Than Ezra- Breathless

Katy Perry- ET & Fireworks

Ke$ha- Crazy Beautiful Life & Blah Blah Blah

Matt and Kim- Daylight

Natasha Bedingfield- Strip Me

Adele- Rolling In the Deep

Flickerstick- Beautiful (long time favorite- Dallas local band)

Lady Antebellum- I Run To You & Need You Now

Time of the Day: evening. LOVE my baths and chilling out

Snack: Swiss Miss Chocolate Swirl Pudding, fruit or chips and salsa

Cosmetic: Neutrogena Naturals Lip Balm and Mascara

Websites: online magazines- Real Simple, Women’s Health, House Beautiful

Dream Job: Interior designer/organizational expert or apart of the creative team for Nordstrom’s or Neiman Marcus in downtown Dallas.

Pet Peeve: clutter and things on the floor

Restaurant: Whataburger (Texas) or Toscano’s Italian Bistro

Things that are important to me: accept & befriend those who are different than me and to forgive.

I’m proud: to be Mormon, to be an American, to be Native American and to be a domestic abuse survivor so that I can experience and appreciate my amazingly loving and devoted husband.

Book: The Travelers Gift by Andy Andrews

Thing to do: 4-wheeling with Josh in the mountains when the suns going down or lying in bed at night talking.

Makes me laugh: Josh’s little voices he makes, Leo getting as close to me as he can whenever I sit down or when he yells at me for his treat.

Hobbies: Cleaning/organizing, decorating and finding as many cute clothes as I can for my money (i.e. bargain shopping) Why the hell would you spend $200 on jeans?! Waste.

Something I wish I was better at: not being so OCD about little irrelevant things.

Vacation: I LOVED Hawaii and do plan to visit again soon! Turks and Caicos/ Nassau were pretty fabulous too…

Quote: “Life is not waiting for the storms to pass; it’s about learning to dance in the rain.”- Vivian Greene

P.S. I do this for journaling purposes only...and so my kids can look back years from now and realize how normal I used to be. ;)

The Latest...

2011-03-13T19:47:00.000-06:00

It's been a few weeks since I last posted anything but not a whole lot has really happened! This past week I have been SO SICK! I think I caught Bronchitis from my sister and it seemed to hit me HARD! I ran fever for 3 days, body aches like you wouldn't believe and lungs that burned with every breath. It was NOT FUN. Yesterday was the first day that I felt decent and managed to make it to the doctor. He said it should be clearing up because my lungs didn't sound too bad anymore, thankfully! Today I feel great except that I get winded pretty easily and I can't shake this cough for the life of me!

Also, news to post is that we're headed back to Texas this summer! I'm sure everyone already knows but it's still blog worthy because afterall, I'm headed back home! We will be in Lewisville which is about 45 minutes north of my family and I could not be happier. Last year, we we're in Houston which is a 4 hour drive; I did not complain about that one bit because I was at least in the great state of Texas. I'm just happy that I'll be in the metroplex! HALLELUJAH! I love the sight of this skyline...Home Sweet Home.

This last news update is a sad one. On Friday, March 11th; Japan suffered one of the most devastating natural disasters in it's history. A 8.9 magnitude earthquake was recorded in Sendai, Japan and was soon followed by a massive tsunami that just about wiped Japan off the map. As of today, 2 days later, an estimated 10,000 people have been killed. Not to mention that the death toll will still continue to climb through the coming months as rubble and debris get cleaned up. To add to the devastation, they are expecting a few more severe aftershocks as well as several unstable nuclear power plants. It is so sad and my heart goes out to those affected by this tragedy.

Japan, you are in my prayers!

I LOVEEEEEE YOGA!!!

2011-02-17T16:15:00.000-07:00

As most of us know, I'm not very athletic or coordinated when it comes to anything athletic but I have become quite the believer in Yoga! I have been taking a Hatha Yoga class on campus this semester, we meet for an hour twice a week and just in the time that school has started, about 7 weeks ago; I have so much more flexibility, I don't get stressed out as easily, I physically feel better, I have toned up a lot and have better posture and I even sleep better at night.
It's a lot easier than some people might think. I thought we had to be super flexible going into that class to be successful but I've learned that these poses are made to improve flexibility even if you don't have any at all. I seriously suggest taking a yoga class whether it's from a gym, school or a yoga studio...I'm not kidding when I say it's probably the best thing since Nutella! (we all know how much I love Nutella.)

Here are a few of my favorite poses:

Downward Facing Dog:

Benefits: Strengthens arms, shoulders, quads; stretches shoulders, chest, hamstrings, calves; keeps spine flexible

Helps: Fatigue, mental alertness

Any of the Warrior poses- I, II, III or Reversed Warrior

Benefits: Strengthens core, legs, ankles; lengthens spine

Helps: Poor posture, weak knees, endurance

Side Plank:

Benefits: Strengthens wrist, abs, legs
Helps: A scattered mind

Half Moon:

Benefits: Strengthens back, glutes, legs; keeps spine flexible

Helps: Insecurity

Crow

Benefits: Strengthens arms, shoulders, chest, abs, upper back

Helps: Poor balance, a scattered mind

I found on WomensHealth.com a whole section dedicated to Yoga with all the benefits, poses, ailments it cures...EVERYTHING! Look it up and give it try!

Namaste!

"All Things Connect..."

2011-01-19T14:41:00.001-07:00

I've been more curious than ever lately about my heritage in being a government registered, one-quarter, Choctaw Indian. This entry is for me, for journaling; so I can look back and remember where I came from. Also, to see the sacrifices of so many for me to be here and have the wonderful life that I do.

My ancestors were primarily from Oklahoma with many current relatives still there to this day. I have found that Choctaw chief Allen Wright (1826-1885) suggested Oklahoma (okla "man" and humma "red"- land of the red man) as the name of the new territory. I spent many days there growing up and when I'm back home, still go as often as I can. Our family has many acres of land, 88 of them being Indian Treaty land. My great-grandmother, Mattie, was awarded 8.8 acres per child, which is for 10 kids. This is a picture of my great-grandmother Mattie and her husband, Sylvester Ladner. Mattie died in 1924 in her mid-twenties, when my grandfather, Andrew, was about six weeks old. Sylvester later married, Audry, who raised Mattie's 3 children and had 7 additional of her own. These pictures of both Mattie and Audry are the first and only pictures I have ever seen of them. All of which are buried together in the Jimtown Cemetary of Love Co. Oklahoma.

Mattie (1895-1924)

Audry (1897-1981)

Sylvester Ladner (1893-1972)


My grandfather, Andrew (1924-2000)

A little history on Choctaw Indians: the word Choctaw is derived from the Choctaw phrase, "Hacha Hatak," meaning river people. They were known as one of the "Five Civilized Tribes" because they adopted and integrated numerous cultural and technological practices of their European American colonial neighbors.

In 1831, U.S. President Andrew Jackson, who was given the name of "Sharp Knife" by the Choctaw people, made the Choctaw's the first Native Americans to travel on the Trail of Tears. The Choctaw were exiled (to the area now called Oklahoma) because the U.S. wanted to expand territory for settlement to European Americans, wanted to save them from extinction, and wanted to acquire their natural resources.

This is a sculpture by James Earle Frazer called "The End of the Trail" which was inspired by poetry from Marion Manville Pope, "The trail is lost, the path is hid, and winds that blow from out the ages sweep me on to that chill borderland where Time’s spent sands engulf lost peoples and lost trails.”

In World War I, they served in the U.S. military as the first Native American code talkers against the Germans, using the Choctaw language as a natural code.

George Washington (first U.S. President) and Henry Knox (first U.S. Secretary of War) proposed the cultural transformation of Native Americans. Washington believed that Native Americans were equals but that their society was inferior to that of the European Americans. He formulated a policy to encourage the "civilizing" process, and Thomas Jefferson continued it. Washington's six-point plan included impartial justice toward Indians; regulated buying of Indian lands; promotion of commerce; promotion of experiments to civilize or improve Indian society; presidential authority to give presents; and punishing those who violated Indian rights. The government appointed agent, Benjamin Hawkins, to live among the Indians and to teach them through example and instruction, how to live like whites. The Choctaws accepted Washington's policy as they established schools, adopted modern farming practices, converted to Christianity, and built houses like their colonial neighbors.

"We have long heard of your nation as a numerous, peaceable, and friendly people; but this is the first visit we have had from its great men at the seat of our government. I welcome you here; am glad to take you by the hand, and to assure you, for your nation, that we are their friends. Born in the same land, we ought to live as brothers, doing to each other all the good we can, and not listening to wicked men, who may endeavor to make us enemies..." —President Thomas Jefferson, Brothers of the Choctaw Nation, December 17, 1803

The US government set up the Dawes Commission to manage the land allotment policy. Beginning in 1894, the Dawes Commission was established to register Choctaw and other families of the Indian Territory, so that the former tribal lands could be properly distributed among them. The final list included 18,981 citizens of the Choctaw Nation, 1,639 Mississippi Choctaw, and 5,994 former slaves, most held by Choctaws in the Indian/Oklahoma Territory.

Chata Anumpa (Choctaw): Hattak yuka keyu hokυtto yakohmit itibachυfat hieli kυt, nan isht imaiυlhpiesa atokmυt itilawashke; yohmi ha hattak nana hohkia, keyukmυt kanohmi hohkia okla moma nana isht aim aiυlhpiesa, micha isht aimaiυlhtoba he aima ka kanohmi bano hosh isht ik imaiυlhpieso kashke. Amba moma kυt nana isht imachukma chi ho tuksυli hokmakashke.
English Language: That all free men, when they form a special compact, are equal in rights, and that no man or set of men are entitled to exclusive, separate public emolument or privileges from the community, but in consideration of public services.

The Choctaws believed in a good spirit and an evil spirit. They may have been sun, or Hushtahli, worshipers. The historian Swanton wrote, "The Choctaws anciently regarded the sun as a deity ... the sun was ascribed the power of life and death. He was represented as looking down upon the earth, and as long as he kept his flaming eye fixed on any one, the person was safe ... fire, as the most striking representation of the sun, was considered as possessing intelligence, and as acting in concert with the sun ... having constant intercourse with the sun ..." The word nanpisa (the one who sees) expressed the reverence the Choctaw had for the sun.

I hold a high regard to my ancestors for their struggles, their battles, but yet their respect for each other as well as those of "other lands." I can only aspire to be the least bit as strong of a person as they were. From their perseverance and determination for a future, we now have a Choctaw Nation going strong today with at least 160,000 registered Choctaw Indians.

"Humankind has not woven the web of life.
We are but one thread within it.
Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves.
All things are bound together.
All things connect."

Chief Seattle, 1854

Just a lil' update!

2011-01-16T22:04:00.001-07:00

Well we are already in the 3rd week of January and a lot has happened! That could mean one of two things; this is going to be an eventful year or I'm just being lazy and my pretty chill schedule is proving to be a little much...which I don't think it's the second.

Josh and I have started our semester at Weber State and I have to say that it was not what I expected! I expected a little tougher classes, longer days, and professors with sticks up their bums. Little did I know that I would have easier classes- one that does not give tests/finals or quizzes (Anthropology) and another class that we perform meditation and "power naps" (stress management) and then a Hatha yoga class (all with awesome professors!) I also am taking a math and a biology class. Biology might be a challenge only because my professor is from France so she "zounds zike zis!" Its tough when she's talking a thousand miles an hour about homeostasis, epithelial tissues and all aspects of cells. Anyway, I'm not complaining because I'm done with school everyday by 12:30 and 9:30am on Fridays. I'm really enjoying it!

Another thing that I have been working really hard at is exercising, with an emphasis on running. I've always loved to work out but living in Ephraim made me pretty lazy because there was nothing there. We joined an awesome gym here in Ogden that offered unlimited tanning, massage chairs and workouts for $20 a month. I go just about every day for about an hour, and for the first time, have been so consistent. I have seen major results, more so in my endurance. I actually really enjoy running and those words have never escaped these lips before.

We enjoy living here in Ogden with Josh's grandparents. We tried getting our own apartment this semester but because we leave the state for Josh's job every summer, it was hard finding an apartment that offered short-term leases. It has all worked out perfectly though!

Well that's all that has changed here with the exception of a new haircut tomorrow- I'm gonna get back to painting my toes and watching the Golden Globes...why am I such a sucker for fashion and celebs.

My New Year's Resolutions

2011-01-01T19:55:00.001-07:00

As I previously posted, we've had a few up's and down's over this holiday break...more down's than up's though unfortunately. We had Grandma Clark's funeral this past Thursday, it was such a great service! The weather was cold but it very sunny, a lot of good memories were shared, and I met a lot of family that I hadn't met yet. The funeral slightly reminded me of my Mimi and Poppy Ladner's funeral a few years ago. Although, I'm still not too sure if it had anything to do with all the "cowboy attire" most people had on.

I LOVED and still do love my grandparents very much and think about them quite often. Through thinking about them and then hearing of the kind of woman Grandma Clark was, really made me think of what people will say about me at my funeral (hopefully quite a few years down the road...)
I know I can be short-tempered, slightly OCD with keeping our place clean, I am definitely a complainer no matter how hard I try not to be, and I'm not the best cook but I've learned that being the best person you can be is the trick to getting "good reviews" when that day comes.

I'm going to practice my cooking because I have no reason not to be a good cook- we have a real stove and don't have to use a wood burning one. I'm not going to complain so much because I don't have a pump water or wash laundry in a basin. I'm going to continue with keeping the house clean but not be so quick to anger when the floor needs to be swept again the next day. Afterall, the house is the only thing I need to keep clean because we don't have a farm or chicken coop to deal with so it could be worse. I live close to conveniences and don't have to grow and harvest every single necessity.

We have life so easy these days that we tend to get upset when life almost isn't handed to us or that it's not "easy enough!" Challenges build character and I want to have a lot of character like my grandparents and especially Grandma Clark- she was a lil' firecracker! I want to be an example. If a little old woman like Grandma Clark and a partially paralyzed Mimi Francis and an old, cheerful Indian man like Poppy Ladner can make such a significant impact on people's lives, then I know that I can too.

So as my New Year has begun, I now welcome challenges and challenge myself to tread right through them with as much strength and optimism that I can muster! Life is too short to not learn more about yourself and your capabilities. I choose to have a more cheerful and happy disposition, less grumpiness. I will work hard for myself and our future family. I will also find time to enjoy life's simplest pleasures with those that I love and also by myself. May you too, find your challenges as character builders and not unwelcomed events. Happy New Year to everyone...and to you, 2011, please don't be too rough on us.

A very different Christmas...

2010-12-26T14:36:00.000-07:00

This Christmas was a hard one for me. It was the first time in "Allayna history" that I wasn't home for the holidays. Usually we do Thanksgiving with Josh's family and Christmas with mine but considering we were in the middle of exams and moving from Ephraim to Ogden, Utah, there really wasn't much time for travel...we hardly had time to buy Christmas presents! What made it even harder was knowing that none of my other sisters who live in other parts of Utah weren't going to make it home either. It made my heart hurt even worse for my parents and my youngest sister who is the only one left at home; just the thought of Christmas for my parents and Candace seemed lonely.

I do love Josh's family so much though, so if I couldn't be at home then this is the place I'd want to be. Since we moved to Ogden, we've been living with Josh's grandparents who also take care of his great-grandmother, Grandma Clark. She is a hilarious woman, though I don't think she ever tried to be...she just was. Over Thanksgiving, we've noticed her health going down hill fairly quick. She's 92 so she's definitely had a long life. Since moving in with them about a week ago, she became for the most part immobile, very weak and uncomfortable. It was so hard to watch, we all love her! To add to a heavy heart from being away from home on Christmas, Grandma Clark passed away in her bed on Christmas morning.

The thought kept occurring to me throughout Christmas day that she went so long being without her husband, parents and siblings that she finally gets to have a "Christmas Morning" with them again but in heaven and she's healthy...how perfect that must be for her. I figured that one Christmas for me away from my home was okay because I know I'll see them again soon. Despite the loss, we had a great Christmas. We all hugged each other a little tighter that day, something I think we all needed, all for different reasons. Thank you Grandma Clark.

On a lighter note, I got some good gifts this year!

Smashbox lip gloss in Baby Pout- my fav!

Columbia Wind Groove Fleece (almost like VELVET!) Jacket

Simply Vera by Vera Wang Shoes

Really cute scarf, shirt and headband from my little sister

My purse that I got as an early Christmas present

AND...

this beautiful diamond necklace from my babe! Thank you so much, I love it and I LOVE YOU!

I hope everyone had a VERY Merry Christmas this year, it'll be here again before we know it!

Movin' on...

2010-12-13T22:12:00.000-07:00

So long Snow College, it's been nice knowin' ya...

Dear Weber State, please be nice to me...

I'm quitting the clean-plate club!

2010-11-28T14:36:00.000-07:00

Oh, motivation, where have you been?

Not that any of you care, this just needs to be documented for my own personal use...

Come March, I will look like this!

I have always tried really hard to keep myself in shape but as of this past summer, I have had absolutely no desire to work out. My eating habits have even slipped quite a bit. That's just not like me and I'm not happy with myself in that regard.

So, my thanks go to Thanksgiving for amping up my desire to get back to pre-wedding shape. I also have a cruise in March to look forward to and to use as my deadline.

This is how I plan to achieve this:

-lots of water and VitaminWaters (I love those!)

-more fruit/veggies

-whole wheat breads (no white enriched crap)

-lean meats (chicken, minimal steak, pork loin, turkey)

-less eating out (limit to once a week)

-I'm not going to deprive myself so I'll still have a few sweets but only in moderation

-work out 4-5 times a week for at least 1 hour (I'll make up a work-out schedule)

-prioritize my time- less tv/down time, more studying/reading, going on walks, gym

-take my Flinestones daily (yes, I do still take those- I love them!)

My 25 Thankful's...

2010-11-24T22:14:00.002-07:00

25. I am thankful for a warm bed to sleep in...and for those days that I don't have to get out of it. It's VERY rare.
24. I am thankful for warm baths to relieve my tension headaches that I get more often than I'd like.
23. I am thankful for Coca-Cola, the fizzy-burn... feels sooooo good.
22. I am thankful for the blessing of being able to continue my education, though some days I wish the school would burn.
21. I am thankful for snow plows and sand trucks, without them I wouldn't be able to go and get a Coke.
20. I am thankful for seat warmers in the Jeep, nothing like toasty buns!
19. I am thankful for holidays and the opportunity to be with loved ones...and no school.
18. I am thankful for "Black Friday" and the opportunity to shop, though I do more of it than I should. It's like Women's Independence Day...the guys play with their guns and hand over all cash, cards and keys to the women.
17. I am thankful for Facebook, MSNBC is getting to be too dramatic for me.
16. I am thankful for my new coat that Josh is letting me wear before Christmas...because it's 7 degrees outside. Literally.
15. I am thankful for a husband that is such a great cook that I no longer have to cook. I think he prefers it that way. Although, I do admit that I make a mean batch of frosted sugar cookies. Just don't tell him that Betty Crocker helps me.
14. I am thankful for laughing and those who make me laugh. It breaks me from any bad mood I am probably in.
13. I am thankful for vacations and the ability I have had to travel to fun and BEAUTIFUL places. It makes me feel like a little kid who wants to run and see EVERYTHING before times up!
12. I am thankful for stormy weather during the summer. It gets me a little excited. I am quite the weather nerd.
11. I am thankful for winter who helps me appreciate the sun and warm weather. Speaking of sun, I need some. Bad.
10. I am thankful for my health and the blessing it is for Josh that I am not sick often...it isn't pretty.
9. I am thankful for Leo, my cat whom without, I would be lost.
8. I am thankful for Josh's job and the ability he has to work all summer long and make a really good living for us only to spend endless hours with me in the off-season. It's worth it. He told me.
7. I am thankful for Thanksgiving and opportunity to really reflect on blessings, family and things that are important to me.
6. I am thankful for Candace, the "baby" sister who has such a strong and powerful spirit. You're such a great example to me and those who know you. Everyone loves you but not more than I do...you're priceless to me.
5. I am thankful for Jordan, my younger sister whom I admire greatly! She has such a positive attitude towards life and she sets aside every single personal care and worry for someone else's. She will never be too busy to sit and listen. She has the biggest tender heart that has probably ever existed and will EVER exist. I am thankful for Blaine too, for taking such good care of you and making you...and the rest of us, laugh all the time.
4. I am thankful for Devin, my little sister who has taught me more persistence and determination than anyone could have ever taught me, I still don't know how you do what you do so successfully. And I am thankful for Dallas for loving you and taking such good care of you.
3. I am thankful for my sweet husband who has shown me more patience and unconditional love than I probably deserve. Without him, Leo and I would be lost.
2. I am thankful for such amazing and kind parents who constantly give their all and then some, to raise our family so close-knit. I have learned the true value of hard work, charity and love by their constant example.
1. I am thankful for my Savior and his endless blessings he so generously blesses me with, trust me, there are some days that I don't feel worthy of anything. I can be a straight up b-r-a-t.

Not sure why I'm posting about this...I just hope it helps to clear my head.

2010-10-19T01:10:00.000-06:00

So, this is a way random post but it's been way too frequent in my head. Some of you may laugh and some might try to share advice (which I still have hope that it might help) and some may just say to yourself, "she's such a wimp" or "she's just psyching herself out." I wish that was the case...! Some of you even already know because I definitely have a hard time keeping it to myself.

I want to first start off by saying that I am currently not pregnant nor have any plans in the near future to be pregnant. With that said, the reason why is because I am terrified. I admit, I believe it is due to a lot of misconceptions I've had over the years from friends who've had babies and their experiences of pregnancy. It's not so much that I'm afraid of the labor aspect, or that our lives will change forever with a new one because honestly, I am sooo excited to be a mom someday! I just have control issues, I think. I don't like knowing that I don't have any control over my body for NINE MONTHS! I don't want morning sickness that won't go away, I don't want heartburn, I don't want more headaches than I already get, I just don't want to be uncomfortable for so long and still try to have a life and pretend that I'm feeling normal. I'm sure this is something that I'll just have to get over when I eventually do find out that I'm pregnant but as for right now, it is DEFINITELY preventing me from getting to that point.

Several posts ago, I blogged about problems with my birth control implant that had to eventually be removed. I was absolutely miserable for two months with anxiety, being nauseous, constant horrible headaches and not getting enough sleep that I think my mind has associated those symptoms from birth control hormones to be similar to what I will experience in actuality. However, since having it removed, I almost think I have more anxiety because of the increased risk of getting pregnant. I don't know why I have such a hard time with the thoughts/feelings of this and honestly, it really bothers me! I feel like I'm being selfish or that "I'm not enough of a woman" to handle it. It may not even be as bad as I am anticipating...I'm in need of some positive reinforcement that I can keep telling myself when these thoughts occur. Got any?!!

No Regrets

2010-10-12T19:29:00.000-06:00

Through having one of the easiest semesters of my college career, I seemed to have learned the most about myself thus far. To others, this may come as an embarrassment of being asked how old I am and going to school at this particular campus. I'm 26 and I'm attending a 2-year school. Sound pathetic? I don't care. I was asked to write a simple 2-page paper that required me to look back in my life at any specific event that has shaped me as the person that I feel I am today, and to find a career that would be a good match to that particular event.

I looked back at my family life as a kid. I had a great upbringing! Awesome parents, the funnest three younger sisters ever, family vacations and Friday night treat-nights. I looked back at the memories I had of all my best girlfriends. We we're inseparable! Every weekend was a sleepover with probably 12-14 of us, without fail! We had some drama, we had some laughs and we had some cries together, all of which I will never forget. High school was great also! I had a good group of friends there too. I had fun doing what I loved, being in Cosmetology and getting my license, going to pep rallies, seeing all my friends during passing periods, and eating lunch at "the cool table."

None seemed to enlighten me on which career would fit until I looked back to "post high school." Some of the biggest events that seemed to twinge my emotional nerve we're my grandparents passing away. Realizing that college wasn't my knack, although I got a 4.0 my first semester, I just did not enjoy the experience. Moving out on my own only to find myself in an abusive marriage. Upon getting out of that situation, finding a really good job that I was able to support myself on. Not that my parents wouldn't have helped me but I was bound and determined to "be my own person." Then, since becoming "my own person," I have found someone who truly loves me and I, the same for him! It's funny because I thought to myself that with the exception of my career and marrying Josh, that most of those experiences we're so negative at the time. I would hate to have a career that was centered around that.

I won't go into detail on the career that I chose because it's slightly irrelevant but it helped me put into perspective the feelings I had when being asked how old I was and why I was still at Snow College. I realized that in the past seven years or so since graduation, I have had a life that most of these "younger college kids" and even some my age haven't had. It's typical for kids to go straight to college after graduation...some of which I still believe are mentally still stuck in high school. (just in my opinion.) But I have had a "life!" I've had a career that paid really well, I've lived in and paid for my own place, along with all of my expenses- and it was a really nice place at that! I've traveled to quite a few different places. I've been married twice (not for bragging rights by any means but the experiences are quite significant.)

I know who I am today because of these experiences. I don't believe I'll recite this to the next person that asks how old I am but I know that when that time comes, I won't lie about my age (not that I ever did!) I will feel proud that I am in school when I thought it wasn't meant for me, and that I'm married to an amazing man when I thought there weren't any out there and that I've seen places that I thought I'd never get to go to before and after marrying Josh and that I know that I am a strong individual who chooses the path her life will take and can change that path when it's misdirected. I know that when/if I needed to, I know that I have great career experience and can support myself and my family and lastly, that family is the most precious gift anyone could have.

Because of this, I have no regrets.

Camping in Maple Grove

2010-09-14T16:52:00.000-06:00

This last weekend, Josh and I packed up after school to meet up with Dustin and Tash for a lil' camping trip! It was so much fun! We got to Maple Grove, which isn't too far from us, around 4 or 5 and set up camp...for some reason the guys decided to set up our tent a million miles from the campfire. Not ideal since it was so cold but it made for a pretty back drop!

It was my mom's birthday so I was on the phone with her when Tash took this. That night, we cooked tin foil dinners and snacked a lot.

The boys found this stream not too far from our campsite and Josh managed to catch him a snack for later...

Meanwhile, Tash and I decide its PJ time... it was soooo cold!

The next morning, the guys left us for another fishing spot so Tash and I grabbed the other pole and set out to find us a little fishing spot of our own. They didn't leave any worms for us but luckily there was a bag of Marshmellows which we later found out, doesn't work.

This was the spot we found and these are the fish we caught! We didn't wanna get showed up by the guys so we caught a few and even gutted them ourselves! Josh said he was so proud of me...I made it look like it was nothing to gut them but in my head, I was so disgusted! haha

Tash, don't kill me because I know you probably don't like this but look how big my little niece is getting!!! I can't wait to meet her!

We had so much fun but Tash and I were so glad to get back home to our hot showers. We love you guys and we'll do this again soon...maybe with baby! ;D

A Very Unwelcomed Event...

2010-08-19T13:59:00.001-06:00

So, as I mentioned in my last post a little blurb about how I felt like my birth control implant was messing me up...well it did quite a little number to me this week. For the past, almost 2 months, I have felt extreme discomfort fairly consistantly throughout the day, everyday. I had a really strong nervous feeling...butterflies times a million for no absolute reason. My heart would race and pound really fast and really hard which made me dizzy and light-headed. I also would shake, almost like I had the cold chills except that I was really hot! My shakes were so bad that at night, it would wake Josh up and he's no light sleeper. It literally drained my energy everyday.

After dealing with this for so long, I had enough. I scheduled an appointment in Dallas with my "girly-doctor" which happened to be on my birthday. All of this happened also while all my sisters and their husbands/fiance were intown from Utah for our August birthday celebrations. So bummed! Anyway, at my appointment, I told my doctor all of my symptoms and that I needed this out of my arm asap. Well, she wouldn't do it. She drew about 4 viles of blood to test for a few things but I knew it wasn't going to return any results. I was devastated. In my gut, ever since the beginning, I knew my birth control was the cause. Well I went home...and cried. I didn't want to have this anymore. We need to finish up our summer here in Houston, prepare for our long-haul home, school starts and we're leaving for Cancun in less than 3 weeks! I want to feel like myself and feel good for another new semester!

After celebrating my dad and I's birthday on Monday on the lake, we went home and for some reason kept feeling this sharp, quick little pulse of pain on the left side of my chest. I ignored it, I was so tired and just went to bed. About 5am, I woke up with my heart racing again except this time, I literally thought my heart would give out because it was pounding so hard. I started to get up to go to the restroom and the entire room started spinning. I was so light-headed. I made my way to my mom and dad's room and laid down next to my mom to have her check my pulse rate. Luckily she works in the cardiac department of our hospital. She felt my heart and rolled over to wake my dad up to have him feel it. Immediately, we were getting dressed to go to the emergency room. I was terrified! My dad said he's never felt a heart beat so hard that it was moving my whole ribcage. All along, I knew this was my birth control. The nurse put about 12 patches on me and hooked me up for an EKG. They also drew another 5-6 viles of blood for more testing. We were there for about 4 hours and the doctor said everything was normal except to get the birth control out! Thank you, Dr! I knew it!!! My gyno doctor is in the same hospital so I went upstairs right after I was released to tell her what had happened. She still didn't believe the birth control was the cause but I didn't care, I just told her to take it out and she did!

Ever since Tuesday, I haven't had any episodes and feel pretty good except for that I'm extremely tired and will be until my hormones balance out again. But that's normal. I've been a little emotional (not from hormones) but because it really touches my heart how my parents dropped everything to help me get this taken care of and how loving and supportive my family is in times of need. I'm also so very thankful that my Heavenly Father has watched over me and blessed me quite a bit throughout this entire ordeal. I'm so thankful for all the love and concern from family and loved ones, I can't ask for any better people in my life...

Just a lil' update...

2010-08-05T12:17:00.001-06:00

Well, our time here in Texas is almost up. I'm so sad but also ready to get back to Utah to finish up school there. A lot of people have asked about our plans for the next few years so why not share it with everyone?! Here goes...

As fast has this summer has come and gone, we'll be done here in Houston by the end of the month and headed back to Utah. Not looking forward to the drive but it's inevitable. We have one more semester at Snow College in Ephraim and then by Christmas break, we plan to move up to Layton for another year of school at Weber State. Josh has been really excited to go to Weber, they have the only Technical Sales program on this side of the Mississippi. He wants to pursue medical sales as his ultimate career, as of right now. He kinda waivers back and forth between a few different things but it's medical sales for right now. As soon as we're done in Layton, we will be heading back to the Great State of Texas, buying a house and getting our roots dug in. We've been looking online and getting MILLIONS of ideas for when we do buy a house. We're dying to buy a fixer-upper and do what we want to the place, I'm so excited, I can hardly stand it.

As much as I love that Josh has this opportunity for a job with Platinum and it really has been very good to us, I am just not the type to pack up and move every 6-8 months. Im a consistant type of person and it's hard to keep a routine under the circumstances. Which kinda leads me to the next tidbit.

I've had alot of anxiety lately. Most of it is unexplained, like, I don't know the cause for it because I'm not really stressed or under pressure. I've done a lot of research and it's either Generalized Anxiety Disorder or my birth control implant. But it just comes over me several times a day during a bad week and several times a week for a good week. I've never had it this bad. It makes me so weak, nauseated, light-headed and really emotional. I would even wake up in the middle of the night shaking so bad that it wakes Josh up, and that's no easy task! To clear the air, several people have asked if I was pregnant. No, I most definatly am not. I hate it though, I've almost been kinda reclusive the last month or so. I get so nervous to go out with everyone and have a break-down. I felt so bad for Josh a few weeks ago. He had the hardest day ever and I already wasn't feeling too good. I called my mom, this was before Josh got home, and I was crying and sobbing like a baby- I couldn't control it! It felt like a panic attack because I almost couldn't breathe. My mom kinda talked me through it and I was okay for the time being but as soon as Josh walked through the door, it started all over again. It was a long night to say the least. If anyone has any tips, ideas or advice, it's greatly welcomed.

Overall though, this has been a great summer. Josh has done really well selling. Leo loves it here as opposed to our basement apartment in Utah. He loves sitting on the balcony watching the birds and soaking up the sun. I have loved being relatively close to my family this summer. We've been able to spend a lot of time together and have LOVED every minute of it. Next week, Devin and her boyfriend, Dallas and Jordan and her husband, Blaine are all driving here for a big August birthday bash. Jordan's birthday is today, Josh's is on the 11th, my dad and I share a birthday on the 16th and Dallas's is on the 23rd. We figured that since were all in town and my mom's birthday is Sept. 10th that she could pretend to be an August baby as well and celebrate hers since we'll all be in town. I'll update party pics as soon as possible...

Anyway, that's our story for now. Next time I update, it may be from Utah...

Goodbye Texas, I heart you.

Mr. and Mrs. Buhanan!

2010-07-12T14:28:00.000-06:00

Jared and Lydia are finally married!!!

The wedding was beautiful, the bride glowing and Jared grinning from ear to ear! I was so glad I could be there! Growing up, this group of us girls; probably 12+ were inseparable. We've all laughed together, seen each other at our worst and been there for each other at our best. We were and still are the best of friends and I would do anything for any one of them!

I love Lydia to death and was so glad that she has found Jared who has made her sooo happy! She totally deserves it. Jared is the greatest guy...aside from my husband although I do think Josh agrees! We love you guys and are so happy for you two.

Joel Osteen

2010-06-29T11:30:00.001-06:00

Last Saturday night, 6/26/10, a few of us wives set for some inspiration. We had heard that Joel Osteen was having a Saturday night service at his arena-style Lakewood Church. Growing up in Texas, I had heard a lot about him not to mention he's been on Oprah and on Barbara Walters list of the top 10 most fascinating people. He had to be good, so why not?!

When we got there, we were trying to figure out where we should sit and this usher asked if we wanted to sit up front. So we said sure, thinking we would just be somewhere in the front of MANY sections in the church. She literally walked us to the very front...3rd row, right in front of him to be exact. And then here come all the lights, the band, the clapping...haha. You could definitely tell I was a visitor because I was tired of clapping after the first 10 minutes! It was really entertaining though! I honestly loved the music, especially the lyrics-it was really a great service!

Joel and his wife, Victoria talked a lot about getting rid of people in your life that weigh you down. As harsh as that sounds, it really made sense! Our life is too short to drag others along who try to tear us down along the way. Our lives and circle of friends should include those who will help build you up, help you reach your goals and motivate you when you hit a rough spot. One thing that really has stuck with me is just a simple phrase that is beneficial to all of us in any endeavor we are pursuing- "Today is the Day!" Whether it's obtaining a healthy lifestyle, quitting addictions, stopping any negative self perceptions...anything! Whatever you want to work on, "Today is the day to...(insert goal here.)" I took quite a bit of notes, well quotes really. After the service, our usher who sat us, asked if we wanted to meet Pastor Joel. So we met him after the service at his book signing for his new book that was recently released. I didnt want to buy his book (don't worry, I didnt tell him that) so he signed my journal instead! How cool!

Tomato.Tamato.

2010-06-18T20:02:00.000-06:00

We have our first tomato!!!

My Idea of Heaven...

2010-06-17T09:22:00.001-06:00

=

My dessert every night this week

x

5 days

=

A much needed workout and regret of ever starting this

(On second thought, I only eat a spoonful as my serving so really, I don't think I do regret this.)

An addendum to my previous post...

2010-06-14T15:20:00.000-06:00

So I previously posted about my Top 10 Favorite Things but then realized that my list wasn't quite complete. In fact, my MOST ABSOLUTE favorite thing isn't actually a thing at all...it's my husband.

I decided that I wanted to do a TOP 10 FAVORITES list about him and why I am so in love with him. (in no particular order)

#10- I don't consider myself to be very humorous but I love when I make him laugh. I love his laugh and especially his "crows feet" wrinkles around his eyes when he smiles. It's a trait of a happy person and I never want those to disappear.

#9- I love how selfless he is although it sometimes turns into an argument. Haha! He always wants what I want because he knows it will make me happy. Don't bother asking him what he wants though because he'll just say "Whatever you want babe!" Then I get frustrated...but really, he just wants me to be happy and I appreciate that.

#8- I love his cooking! I've gained a few pounds since we've been married but he seriously is like an undiscovered gourmet chef. He loves to cook, in fact he IS the cook in our family until the summer's come around. He makes real food, none of that boxed or bagged crap. Which I'm so thankful for...I love fresh, healthy food. I feel bad though because during the summer's he loses weight. He always says it's because of all the walking and sweating he does everyday but honestly, I don't think I can make enough food for the boy! My dinners of veggies, salads, chicken, fish, etc doesn't quite work for my little carnivore.

#7- He gets so cuddly when he's sleepy, I love it!

#6- He loves my family. It's as if my parents have been his parents all along, they have such a good relationship. I think he talks to all of my family more than I do! (Sorry Mom and Dad, I'll work on that...)

#5- Most days I don't feel so beautiful. I wake up with my hair all over the place, kinda grumpy and haven't brushed my teeth yet but that never stops him from telling me how beautiful I am. He is so full of compliments and is very thoughtful. There have been a few days though that I've been so gross that I almost think he's full of crap when he tells me. I'm sorry babe but it's okay to be honest, lol! <3

#4- He's just like a big kid! He cannot go to the pool without his goggles. I love it too, he always makes me laugh! Any opportunity he has in the ocean, I have to kiss him "goodbye" before he gets in because I don't see him again until it's time to leave. He loves "exploring" and collecting things he finds! When we got home from the Caribbean, his entire backpack and swimsuit pockets were full of sand, shells and rocks. As mom always said, "check the pockets before putting it in the washer!" I now understand...

#3- Josh is such a hard worker! This job opportunity with Platinum may sound like a good deal with only having to work during the summer but it is probably one of the harder jobs anyone can have! Extremely hot, long days. The only day off is Sunday and mentally, he has to overcome a lot of obstacles each day to be able to achieve his goals. He sets high goals too which shows his amount of motivation to earn the money we need to provide for a family someday. That's his main focus and I completely respect him and adore him for all of his hard work for us.

#2- I give him such a hard time for this and I shouldn't because it's his hobby but he loves to hunt and fish. Don't get me wrong, I love to fish too. I have really had to adjust my perspective on this and it has kind of opened my eyes to another layer of who Josh is. He is just like his grandfather who is prepared for the Apocalypse! If there was war on U.S. ground, he is totally prepared to find shelter in the middle of nowhere and would know how to live off the land and provide for ourselves. I feel safe in knowing that if it really came to that, our family would be perfectly fine!

#1- My number one, FAVORITE THING is that he makes time for "us." We love spending days together whether its a rainy Sunday and laying in bed watching movies all day or going on a little road trip. We have so much fun together and are completely content doing anything or nothing at all.

I couldn't have asked for a better man to spend my life with and can only imagine the adventures we're going to have. I know that no matter where life takes us or how rough it may get, we have each other and that's all we need.

"These are a few of my favorite things..."

2010-06-14T10:53:00.000-06:00

So as some of you may know, I am a product "junkie..." I LOVE trying new products that come out like new shampoos/conditioners, makeup, lotions, hair stuff; I love it all! I've been trying really hard to get control of this lately but I have yet to figure out my logic as to why I find something that I absolutely love but yet the junkie inside of me says, "Oooh more new stuff, let's try it!" So here, I have compiled a list of my TOP 10 FAVORITES of all time!

#10- Loreal ReFinish Microdermabrasion
(no longer in stores)(...at least the ones I've checked!)

I did, however, find this on Amazon.com though! It is FANTASTIC! My skin has always been a little sensitive but this is gentle enough and seriously effective in polishing up your skin. It gets rid of discolorations and makes your skin so soft. AND, the moisturizer that comes with it; best I've ever used!! Seriously!

#9-Dove Intensive Repair Shampoo/Conditioner

Dove always makes my hair so soft and it does what it says about "Weightless Volume!" I wake up in the mornings looking like a puff-ball instead of a frizz-ball. Josh even loves how soft his hair gets, I think it's so cute! We love this!

#8- Benefit High Beam Highlighter

I've been using this stuff for a couple years and have NEVER NOT LOVED IT. Especially in the summer when you want a dewy and not a "made-up" look. I hate wearing foundation in the summer; not the best thing for your skin especially in Texas but this just gives you a subtle glow that makes your skin look so fresh and healthy.

#7-Dolce and Gabbana '3' Imperatrice

This is a new scent by D&G and I'm so glad they made it! I was IN LOVE with this scent since the first time I laid my nose on it, haha! I tend to get migraines with most strong perfumes but this one is really fresh and light but strong enough that people can smell it. My husband loves when I wear this perfume!

#6- Got2Be Glued

So originally this was my husbands hairspray that he used everyday. When I ran out of mine, his was all I had...and most days, I cannot go without hairspray! So upon using it, I was literally HOOKED on this stuff! With hair drying, curling and flat-ironing, I tend to get split ends and fly away hairs (which I sweetly call my "baby hairs," lol) But I'm convinced that there is seriously glue in this stuff, my "baby hair's" stay put all day long and even through the night, not kidding!

#5- Aldo Handbags

I LOVE handbags!!! But I sure as hell will not spend tons of money on one. My last few bags that I've bought from here have looked like they were a decent amount of money but I have yet to spend over $50 bucks for one! They are thick, durable leather and have QUITE a variety! Here's my last two bags that I've bought from Aldo that happen to be my favorite bags I've ever owned...

#4- Snuggle Blue Sparkle Fabric Softener

I'm a sucker for crawling into a warm, clean bed that smells of Snuggle! I've been a Snuggle fan since I was a baby, LITERALLY! My mom used to tell me that I would get so excited with the Snuggle bear was on tv...I even had my own stuffed Snuggle bear. I LOVE the smell of clean laundry!

#3- Naturally Victoria's Secret- Honeysuckle and Patchouli

This lotion smells SOOO good! It isn't greasy and leaves your skin so soft! My favorite thing is taking a warm bath and putting this lotion on before crawling into bed. Not only do I have to bathe EVERY SINGLE NIGHT to be able to sleep good, I have to smell good too. It's a slight complex I have, I know...but I'm pretty sure Josh appreciates it. ; )

#2- Biosilk Hair Serum

This is my magic potion. I have naturally wavy, sometimes curly hair (depending on what time of the month it is...weird, I agree.) But by putting this serum in my hair before I blow dry, it works miracles for frizzies. It smells really good too!

#1- Yankee Candle- Spiced Pumpkin

I know this is a seasonal scent but I do happen to love the Fall very much and the Fall wouldn't be the same if my house didn't smell of Spiced Pumpkin. There's just something about it that reminds me of home and gets me excited for cloudy/cool/breezy temperatures, pretty leaves and family time on the holidays.

These are in no particular order because I OBVIOUSLY love every single thing on this list. I thought that just maybe if I ended up with Amnesia or Alzheimer's, this list will make it easy for Josh to pick out gifts in case I don't remember what I like...a little far fetched but Josh's motto for our family is to "always be prepared!" :)

Just my thoughts on this BP chaos...

2010-06-08T16:29:00.000-06:00

First off, I am definately not the most qualified individual to discuss environmental issues but as far as this BP issue goes...it does not take a genius! My heart goes out to all the people, animals and areas devasted by this disaster. This should have never happened and most of all, should not be STILL HAPPENING!

It's been 50 days since the explosion on the oil well and everyday since then, it has spilled... (I don't think this deserves a drum roll...)

This is so sad! Not only will our country be affected by this but this has become a global matter that we will be dealing with for YEARS to come. I hope BP goes bankrupt and Tony Hayward has to live in a cardboard box. Just my personal opinion. My prayers are with those volunteers who truly care about our environment and doing all they can to make up for what BP isn't doing...

Summer 2010- Platinum Protection

2010-05-22T12:01:00.000-06:00

As you know, with Josh's company we move to a new city every summer for sales with Platinum Protection. Last year, we lived in Washington D.C. and originally we were supposed to be in Atlanta, Georgia this summer! We were really excited about Georgia peaches, all the Farmer's Markets and especially to meet Paula Deen of whom we love very much! Then on our anniversary weekend, it was late- probably around 10 or 11pm. Josh was told that a very important conference call was to be held that night. I thought that was so weird seeing as how it was a weekend, late night- what are the odds of reaching everyone if this is "so important!" As it turns out, Atlanta was nixed and that our home for this summer is to be...

Houston, Texas!

You could not imagine my excitement!!! I was going back to the Mother Land. Home! We packed up after Josh's last semester exam, drugged up Leo on some Benadryl so he would sleep and started our drive to Texas. Without stopping except for gas, as we usual, we made it in about 23 hours. I love being so close to home again and able to see my family a little more consistently and all of my girl friends! Josh has always loved Texas and loves selling down here. We have decided to do extended season this year which will keep us here until October, hopefully! If things go as planned! I will try to be a little better a blogging this summer and can't wait to see what this summer holds for us! Stay tuned...

Jordan's Wedding- Dallas, Texas- April 10, 2010

2010-05-22T11:51:00.000-06:00

I feel SOOOO OLD!!! My little sister, Jordan got married this year! I cannot believe it, I remember playing hair and make up together because she was about the only sister who would let me experiment on! I love her to death, as I do ALL of my sisters. This was definitely bitter-sweet but I know she is SO happy and that Blaine is and will continue to be a great husband to her. He fits into the family to perfectly and Josh and Dad are so excited to have added a little more testosterone in the house. I am so glad Josh and I were able to be there. Here are just a few pictures I took from Facebook. Love you Jordan and Blaine!!!

I LOVE this man! (you too Dev.)

This is the epitome of Candace:

*Nice*

>Not at ALL nice<

We were waiting to be seated at Cheddar's. It was sooo WINDY, we all were a little windblown.

.I Love My Sisters.

Our ONE YEAR Anniversary- April 18, 2010

2010-05-22T10:32:00.000-06:00

I'm REALLY trying to get our blog up to date and since then, Josh and I have celebrated our 1st anniversary together! I cannot believe it's been a year since we got married! Time flies when you're having fun!

Josh's grandparents own a really nice condo down in the beautiful St. George, Utah. We left after Josh got out of class on Thursday and drove down to spend a wonderful weekend together, uninterrupted! It was so warm and sunny which was the perfect escape from the snow we've been trapped in 5 months prior!

I didn't take very many pictures and I'm really bummed!!! I didn't even get one of the both of us! Its hard when there is only 2 of us and no one to take our picture. Josh took me to get MY FAV meal ever...Sushi at Benja Thai and Sushi! It was sooo delicious and I totally ate my weight in sushi that's for sure!

We lounged by the pool, went on a drive through the beautiful red cliffs, and Josh cooked me a lot of really good dinners (but that's a daily thing as he is usually our household chef and is QUITE good at it!)

I love him so much and cannot wait for all the adventures we dream of taking. He is my best friend and I am truly blessed!

Introducing......LEO!!!

2010-05-22T09:52:00.000-06:00

As of Easter weekend, we have a new addition to our little family. We adopted a Siamese cat named Leo! Josh first saw him when we were browsing around Petsmart just to "look" at all the animals. He then came across what would soon be our first pet together! At first, I was a little reluctant due to how much we travel with Josh's job. I know cats aren't huge fans of being in cars at all! Josh insisted though that everything will be fine and before I knew it, Josh was filling out all the paperwork to take him home.

He is THE MOST cuddly, affectionate cat I have ever seen. He's about 8 years old and LOVES to have his belly rubbed. He has quite the personality! He was rescued from a feral cat colony earlier this year but he is so laid-back that you would never guess! I think he might have been someone's house cat and they probably just bailed on him and left him nowhere to go. I think he realizes that we love him and want him to have a safe home.

I think he gets annoyed by how many pictures I take of him. Haha!

He has NO TEETH and is declawed which is why he never attacks anyone because he can't. It is funny though to play with him and all he can do is gum your hand. He does eat solid food oddly enough, his gums are tough enough to handle it and it helps keep them healthy. He obeys commands and never really Meows at all.

He's waiting for Josh to come home from work, he knows that by the time I start cooking at night that Josh should be walking in the door soon.

He fits in perfectly and is the sweetest thing EVER!

Hello Paradise!!! Platinum Cruise 2010- Caribbean- Turks and Caicos/ Nassau, Bahamas

2010-02-28T12:27:00.000-07:00

Click on the pictures to enlarge them:

First of all, these pictures do not do an ounce of justice to how beautiful these places really were. I could not get over how blue the water was and how colorful the cities were. Josh's company that he works for, Platinum Protection, sent a lot of the company on this cruise to the Caribbean. We left Sunday, Feb. 21st and flew into Ft. Lauderdale, boarded the ship in Miami and set sail for paradise...

I was so worried it was going to be rainy the whole time. It was pretty overcast the first 2 days but we were at sea anyway so it wasn't too bad. The boat was rocking so bad though from the wind, a lot of people got sick. Thank goodness for Dramamine though- I wouldn't have survived without it!

Day 1: Sea Day. The skies cleared for a bit to let us all catch some rays instead of being stuck inside the boat. It was so nice! I'm such a people watcher so laying out on deck was so entertaining for me. There were so many foreigners, I loved overhearing people's conversations in a different language.

I should have learned from my trip to Hawaii that you can still get pretty toasted while the weather is overcast...my poor nose and shoulders were burnt and Josh's forehead was probably as red as a tomato- not kidding.

The ship was set up to have buffet-style food all day long, every day. Not great for being in a swimsuit all week, but every night we ate in the actual formal dining hall. This was so fun. They had a different menu for each day and you could pick as many appetizers, dinners, desserts as you want. The waiters/ waitresses and Maitre d's would all do a dance every night for us. We loved our waiters, Edward and Rico who were from Indonesia and the Philippines. They were so fun- probably some of the most personable staff on the ship that we met. They would show us tricks, we would cheer them on when they danced and they even told us about their families back in their countries. It would be so hard to leave your family for 8 months at a time to have to provide for them. They were such sweethearts. These pictures were from our formal night. We dressed up, ate dinner, went to a Broadway style show which we weren't allowed to take pictures of but we managed a few shots...

Day 2- Turks and Caicos: As soon as I walked off the ship, I was so taken back with how beautiful it was. We managed to be some of the first few off the ship so the beaches were empty, the sun was warm and a cool breeze from the ocean with all this loud Bahamian music in the back ground made for a dream come true. I was so absolutely sick of the snow and cloudy weather back home that I almost forgot how warm and relaxing the sun was.

We did a little snorkeling, all the pictures are on our water camera but we saw a lot of cool things. Tons of pretty coral, Lion fish (which we think are poisonous), squid, clear little fish and some neon blue ones. There were TONS of Conch shells washed up. Josh made a mission to find the prettiest one to bring home. You should have seen our beach bag when we left, shells, dried out coral and sand in every single pocket!

I should be a Carnival photographer- I took this shot- it looks like a post card!

The water was gorgeous. Josh and a few other guys were snorkeling in the back ground of this picture.

View from back on the ship before departure.

We loved our little zoo of animals that Dewa, our housekeeper from Indonesia created for us. Dewa LOVED Josh...too bad Dewa is a male. Haha. I don't think he even knew my name but he made sure to always say good morning to "Joshwa." It was so funny. "How are you Joshwa?!" "You lookin' stylin' Joshwa!" "Do you need anything Joshwa?" It was cute! I don't think Josh agrees though. Haha.
Day 3: was supposed to be Half Moon Cay but due to the weather, the ship couldn't port. That was another day of boat rocking and motion sickness for most people. Again, thanks to my Dramamine- I enjoyed the day napping, walking around the ship, the sushi bar and hanging out with everyone. I would have much rather been on the beach again though. Oh well, its a good excuse to go again!

Day 4: Nassau, Bahamas- aka what could have been the last day of our lives! This was quite an adventure. We got off the boat in Nassau and walked over to catch a taxi van to the Atlantis Resort. There were several cab drivers over there basically wheeling and dealing to get us to go them over the other guy. Basically persuading us with the kind of deals they can get us for Atlantis. This ended up splitting our group up so a bunch went with Dwight in his van and 4 other couples including us went with this other guy. After we got in the van, we all were seriously a little freaked out after what kind of things this guy was telling us and especially how he was driving! When we asked what his name was, all he could tell us was "Business is business and he doesn't give out his name." BUT, we could call him "Big Black Guy with a Gun!" Yeah, he actually told us that! As we were driving, he had a lot of things hanging from his rear view mirror but with every ditch he hit, I noticed he had a name tag hanging. I figured, if we were gonna die and not know who killed us- at least I would have a picture of the ID for police. So, being as terrified as I was, managed to snap this...
He drove us through the ghettos of the Bahama's and saw where all these drug deals happen. I'm not even positive if he didn't make a drug deal while we were in the van because, AS HE WAS DRIVING, his window was rolled down and he would pass a few people and slip them a wad of cash. He took us through the city, and to this old "fort" from back in the 1700's. It was pretty cool but we just wanted to get to Atlantis...alive!

I seriously couldn't tell you what these buildings were. We were a little preoccupied with how we were going to get to Atlantis as quick as we could. Atlantis tickets for the water park and meal ticket are about $100 each but our "cabbie...with a gun" said he could get them for $75 each. Little did we know but we should have figured, it was a black market wristband to get in. Which explained why he was delaying us by driving through the city to get to Atlantis because if we got there early and already had wristbands, then Atlantis would question us and we would get him caught.

At last, we made it to Atlantis! I could seriously live there for the rest of my life! It was the most beautiful resort I have ever seen in my life. It was so much fun! We rode a bunch of water slides- The Black Falls and The Rapids, and one that we rode even went through the shark tank!

This picture, you can see the tunnel in the background for the water slide.

Here are some pictures from the aquarium. Some of the pictures didn't turn out so great because of the flash and glass but here are a few.

Green Moray Eels that are actually blue- the mucous that covers their skin is yellow which makes them green! Who woulda thought?

Old school scuba gear. Couldn't figure out if it's actual gear or costume...

Beach in Nassau, right across from Atlantis

Tash and I hanging out waiting for the group to come back to leave for the ship.

Blaire, Me and Tiff

Some of the group before we set sail for home

The trip came and gone so fast. It was so much fun though, we were and still are so exhausted. With a weeks worth of Dramamine in your system, plane flights and the ship, our equilibrium still can't straighten itself out. When we walk, we kinda sway from side to side like we're still on the boat.

Goodbye Paradise, you haven't seen the last of me!

MY VALENTINE-

2010-02-15T15:50:00.001-07:00

As soon as I got home from work on Friday, I was surprised with this beautiful bouquet of flowers, teddy bear and the sweetest card! His card said "I was the rose above all others" which explains the tall, single red rose.

On Saturday, we headed up to Provo about noon; ate lunch a Carrabba's (Josh's fav!), went for some cruise shopping and spent a lot more than we probably should have, we also went to look at pets at Petsmart (not buying yet, just looking!) and then headed to Happy Sumo for some killer sushi! I really could not have asked for a better day to spend with my hubby...especially since it included shopping. Hehe! He is just so much fun that I love being around him whether it's doing absolutely nothing or running our tedious errands. I love you babe and thank you for being my best friend!

NEXT POST...
The CARIBBEAN!

We set sail at midnight Sunday night/Monday morning and will be basking in the sun's rays for an entire week! We don't get a lot of sun here this time of the year- I SOOO NEED IT!

FYI- If I ever go missing....

2010-02-15T15:32:00.000-07:00

This is the culprit...A MOUNTAIN LION!

Josh and I went on a 3 mile hike up a mountain and we saw this! There were TONS of kitty foot prints and this one was chasing a deer, you better believe I made Josh get his gun ready and I did NOT let go of his hand! I've never felt like something was watching me more than I have at this moment in my entire life.

Definitely a hard hike uphill and in 3 feet of snow the entire way up. We had such a good time though!

Words can't describe...

2010-01-22T19:30:00.000-07:00

As I get older, I find that I am more and more emotionally affected by the events our world goes through. I'm not directly related to the victims of our days tragic events nor do these tragic events even occur remotely close in distance to me. My heart feels so heavy for the victims of Haiti's earthquake that occured on January 12, 2010. So many men, women and children were left with absolutely nothing and more often than not, have lost one if not more family members. It's hard to put yourself in their shoes and to imagine the struggle and worry the victims have of finding lost or deceased family members and still needing to find shelter, food and medication for the rest of your family.

One thing I continue to learn is the resiliency we all have as individuals; for the survivors to rise from the rubble even after days and days of burial and to look towards a new day with gratitude and renewed faith. I also learn that no matter how much violence, death and drama that is portrayed these days on the news, there are still countless people out there with the softest hearts and willing hands to give what they can to those who can't.

I'm thankful for our country and the means we have to provide relief and hope in times of heartache. I'm thankful for the selfless doctors and medics out there who give their time and talents to treat the wounded.

I'm thankful there's still hope...

Sugar for your fingers!

2010-01-07T13:25:00.000-07:00

I started making these rings last year just to see what they would turn out like and surprisingly they turned out really well! I've always been a jewelry freak so anyway that I could get way cute, reasonably priced and lots of it has always been on my list of to-do's.

I especially love, Love, LOVE the big chunky rings that come in every color! One for every outfit, mood or even multiples to layer.

I've managed to sell a few to random people that wanted some so I figured I should post my pictures and make them available to everyone!!!
If you would like one and want a particular color or shape of gem please leave a comment with your ring size and color of metal (gold or silver)

Small round gems: $4.00 (any color)
Large round gems: $5.00 (any color)
Large oblong gems: $7.00 (any color)
Turquoise: $6.00

May I have everyone's attention!

2010-01-06T16:52:00.000-07:00

For anyone planning on getting married or knows of anyone getting married or just wants a dress for the heck of it...

I am selling mine!

As much as I LOVED this dress, I have no use for it any longer. It's a beautiful corset-backed dress that has never had any alterations whatsoever. No damages, blemishes or anything but I will dry clean it for anyone who is interested.

There are crystals that outline the neck and armlines as well as rouching from the chest to midsection. The shop that I bought this from said this is a size 2 but due to the corset back, they can fit a size 0, 4 and possibly even a 6. Alterations, if needed, would be fairly minimal and simple.

I will sell it for $500 or OBO (or best offer)
and if you'd like to see the dress or try it on, I have it here at home in Ephraim.

let me know if you're interested- 214-554-4136

Home for the Holidays

2010-01-04T19:11:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe Christmas and New Years have already come and gone. Time flies when you have fun for sure! Josh and I got to Dallas, Dec 10th and spent a good 3 weeks at home with family and friends. There were a few events that we didn't quite anticipate. First of which- my poor and faithful Jetta saw it's last days. We drove 1200 miles from Utah to Dallas with no problems whatsoever and after we get home, we decide an oil change might be beneficial, BUT to our dismay- it's what killed her. The stupid mechanic just "forgot" to put oil in the car and sent us on our way. 30 miles later...ON THE HIGHWAY at RUSH HOUR, the engine blows. Yes- destroyed, ruined, kaput, DEAD! So the last 2 weeks of our vacation was spent working with the mechanic's shop, their insurance company and an attorney. This may sound like a complete unfortunate event, but honestly we feel this is a blessing because Jetta's time was coming close and we knew that if we were going to sell it, we wouldn't get much for it. BUT, because the shop is at fault, we should get a settlement and the value of the car which is alot more than I really expected. Merry Christmas to us!

On to other events, we had so much fun with the family. We made it to a Mav's game, went to our farm in Oklahoma, reunited with friends that I haven't seen since the wedding, New Years in downtown Dallas, laughs and new memories with the family and ALOT of eating. It was a blast and I'm so thankful for such awesome family and friends. Thank you mom and dad for everything, we love you tons and can't wait to see you again soon.

I'm just going to post pics. Hope everyone had a FANTASTIC holidays and may 2010 be the best year yet! Much love-

My Thanks for Thanksgiving

2009-11-28T18:11:00.000-07:00

Quite frankly, I do not like Thanksgiving very much. Do we really need another reason to gorge ourselves with food?! Honestly!

I've loved spending time with Josh's side of the family this Thanksgiving. They are such warm and loving people. They remind me a lot of my own family. So generous, kind, and welcoming...people I can be myself around without the judgement of who was married into their family. SO grateful for them being such good examples to Josh growing up. Josh is DEFINITELY Grandpa John's grandson, that's for dang sure!

Ive reflected a lot the past few days about my life, events in my life and the people who have been there for me through out my life. I know without a doubt that I would not be who I am today for trials that have built my character, loved ones that have been my strength and example and for the gospel and the knowledge it gives me as to why I need all of these influences to begin with.

I'm thankful for Josh, my amazing husband. His smile lights my heart and his heart lights my smile. He's such a selfless person with so much to offer our family and for that, I am thankful. He's a great strength to me in the gospel, he helps me understand more of what I don't know. His hugs are the epitomy of who he is- strong, warm, and protective. Anything thats important to me, is important to him. I probably take him for granted alot but I really am thankful for you babe, I love you.

Im thankful for my family. Each one has definatly been indivdual examples to me my entire life. They are so supportive and encouraging, loving and welcoming and a great ear to just listen to me talk. We have and will always create great memories and traditions. I love their laughs, there is never NOT a laugh in the house. They are so fun. I love the sense of protection we have for one another, we're as tight as an Italian mafia. ;). I really would be nothing without them.

Im thankful for my health. My heart hurts for those with illnesses and disabilities. It's something I never think about, "what if I was born handicapped or had an illness that affected me through my entire life?" My life would be drastically different, I would have completely different trials, my family would have completely different trials, who knows if I would be able to have a family someday?! Would I have ever met Josh? Contemplating my life in a whole new light sometimes puts things into perspective for me and makes me grateful that I am not in a situation as this. For those who are, I want you to know that you are a GREAT example to me.

I am thankful for the gospel and for the comfort it provides each day. For the ability and knowledge we have to pray and receive inspiration is truly a blessing. I am thankful for the leaders of our church and for their strength and dedication to the Saints across the world and mostly, to the Lord. I love the fact that families can be eternal if we choose so. I love that we have our free agency to prove to ourselves and the Lord, how much we truly desire all of the things He's promised to us. Above all, I'm thankful for Christ's atoning sacrifice for each one of us. I am far from perfect and His love and mercy keep me in His good graces. I am thankful for Him.

Platinum Par-TAY!

2009-10-27T22:21:00.000-06:00

Yes, I know all the other Platinum wives have posted about this but I felt I shouldn't exclude myself from sharing the festivities, that would just be rude. So last Friday, we headed up to Salt Lake for the Platinum End of the Year party at The Depot. It was such a good venue, it made me miss the old days of Dallas and going to watch all the local bands at the big venues. It was fun. They had a salsa band that was pretty decent- living in Texas, you hear your fair share of salsa/Latin music. I should have taken a picture but kept getting distracted as the opportunity presented itself.

Platinum gave away prizes, crazy good prizes at that! Trips to Brazil and Austrailia. Dirtbikes, 4-wheelers, crazy PHAT watches and tons of cash. I hauled outta that place with a bag full of prizes myself! A bag of FREEBIES. Gotta love a new Platinum wives shirt, flip flops for our cruise in Feb and 3 boxes of Platinum mints from the table. Take what I can get right?! It was so good to see everyone together again- I miss all the girls!

Heres a few quick pics of everyone (well MOST everyone...)

The girls + Ladd= NOT an all wives picture! :)

Josh's Cooking Projects

2009-10-20T17:00:00.000-06:00

So, being the chef that Josh is and that I proudly support (mainly because I'm not very good at cooking) has begun a blog that will contain recipes he loves to make. You'll be relieved to know that they will all be really good recipes because they have to go through me first seeing as how I am the one who decides if they're blog worthy. Feel free to check it out...the address is, joshsgrubclub.blogspot.com. I also have his link on my friends list...Happy Cooking!!!

UEA Weekend...Camping.

2009-10-04T12:53:00.000-06:00

Thank heavens for a school holiday! UEA weekend was started Thursday. I still have no clue what UEA means but supposedly it's when the deer hunt season begins. I guess they figure since everyone would rather hunt than go to class, you might as well call off school! Hey...I'm not complaining.

Josh and I left Wednesday after class to meet up with his grandparents and aunt/uncle and their 2 girls for a weekend away deep in the Uinta Mountains. His aunt Trish and Keith have a very nice log cabin up there. 4 bedrooms, 3 baths, a game room, loft area and wrap-around porch. Here's a few pics...I didn't get any of the outside because you obviously can't see it with all the trees. You can barely see it in this picture but the green roof at the bottom is the cabin.

The loft area had 2 more rooms and another bathroom as well as a sitting room with this beautiful view.

The fam playing a few card games.

We had a blast. We had 4-wheelers, all of our fishing poles, Josh had all of his guns and I had my shower at the end of the day. Thats all I ask when camping. A cold front blew through the day we got there and it snowed maybe 2-3 inches by the next day. It was sooo cold but Grandpa John got me all bundled up with several gloves, another heavy coat to layer up with Grandma Bonnie let me use her snow boots. I felt like a typical, unprepared city girl but none the less, we had so much fun.

I had heard there were moose everywhere there. I was dying to see one, thinking I would see one from the window or something. Well as we were about to jump on the 4-wheelers, a baby moose comes mosey'ing over within 15 ft of us. As amazed as I was, I'm pretty sure I said quite a few swear words. I was terrified. I hid behind Josh and closed my eyes thinking that if I can't see him, then he can't see me.....boy was a wrong when he turned to face us. I wanted to run! You never get between a momma moose and her baby and being that this was a baby, mom had to be nearby! Those baby moose have got some LONG legs...poor mom! From the feet to the top of his hump was taller than Josh and he's 6'2!

The views were incredible although don't expect help if your stranded, it's just mountains for MILES and no phone service!

Beautiful scenery!

Josh and Grandpa John shot about 10 Pinehens (chickens that hang out in the pine trees) and about 10 trout from the pond down the mountain.

Us and Grandpa John on the prowl in the pine forest! It was kinda creepy back there because the forest is so dense...you never know what's lurking back there!

Josh made me hold a Pinehen after he shot it, despite my smile, I was absolutely disgusted!

After getting frustrated when the fish quit biting, Josh thought, "to hell with fishing poles" and pulled out his gun.

We also saw tons of deer around the back porch, so cute.

This one was the doe.
and these were her fawn...

Here's a quick one of us. It was so nice to get away, thanks Keith and Trish for everything! Can't wait to see you guys at Thanksgiving.

Beautiful Manti-

2009-09-16T18:16:00.000-06:00

This is for the fam also... the beautiful Manti Temple. We live about 5 min down the road. You can see the temple from where we live, lit up at night. It's sooo pretty.

No, I havent fallen off the earth...but thanks for asking!

2009-09-16T16:41:00.000-06:00

I know, I know...my mom was about to kill me too if I didn't get this thing updated! Its been about a month since the last update. Since then, we've moved from DC back to Ephraim, getting our little home set up and getting back in a school routine and catching up since we missed the first week. All is well now though. I took a video for the fam so they know where/how were living. I'm a mess in these videos, don't look at me too closely. Hope you enjoy mi familia!

Okay...well my video won't upload. So! I took some pictures. Doesn't do much justice as far as seeing the layout but at least you can see what we've done with the place. :)

Our dining room, as soon as you walk through the front door, to the right.

Laundry Closet
Spare Bedroom/Study

Extra Storage

Now, time for a little r&r...We've had so much fun since being back. The weather is cooler, the trees are changing colors, its a much slower pace here and we have alot more time to spend together. We've been camping, hunting (well Josh has, I just watch), we go on a walk every night...its so nice. Ill post some pictures once the trees really start changing. Can't wait for fall, its my favorite season!

Past few weeks...

2009-08-20T10:39:00.000-06:00

It's been a few weeks since I've blogged...honestly, I shouldn't be blogging right now anyway- we have a whole apartment to pack up and be ready to start our haul back to Utah this weekend.

Since the last blog, both Josh and I had our birthdays! His is Aug 11th and mine is the 16th. My dad's birthday is also the 16th. Its a little bittersweet having always shared a birthday and a cake with dad but now that we're away from Texas, I can share it with my husband. So it's still fun! We didn't do too much though because of Josh's schedule but I made him a stack of birthday french toast complete with powdered sugar and a candle and bought him a pair of shoes that he LOVES and 2 shirts to start his back to school wardrobe. That night we went to dinner and a movie but afterwards we were still too full and it was way late so unfortunatly, he didnt get his birthday cake until the next day. He didnt complain.

For my birthday, it was a Sunday so I got Josh to myself for the day. We ran some errands (which I dont mind, as long as we're together) and ate at my favorite burger place, Five Guys. It was delicious and probably the last time we'll eat it here in DC. Sad. We came home and he made the cutest white round cake covered in colorful sprinkles and sang me happy birthday. It was cute and I love him to death!

Yesterday, I realized most of the wives have left already and I didnt feel like sitting at home so I begged Josh to let me go out with him and sell for the day. I think he thought I was going to complain and want to give up a few hours into the day but I think I could have stuck out even longer than he did. It was fun to watch him do what he does everyday and for his customers to think we're co-workers instead of actually being husband and wife. haha, (little did they know...)

Today, the clocks tickin', getting closer to Saturday! I cant be anymore excited to leave DC. It was fun when we had sights to go see and things to do but after youve done all those things- you realize that youre just in a big city, full of rude people whose only language is their car horns. Its pathetic. Anyway, this was just a quick update. Next time I write, we'll be in Utah!

WOO-HOO!

XOXO-

The Platinum Wives Club

2009-08-08T17:27:00.000-06:00

Well, this summer has come and gone. We have about 2 weeks left here before we make our trek back to Utah. I'd have to say that this has been a fun summer. I've learned alot, laughed alot, and gotten lost alot but hey, you live and learn as I'd say.

Im really thankful for the other wives here. They are such sweethearts and I have developed such a great bond with all of them. It will be tough to get used to not seeing them everyday but hopefully we can stay in touch often and will be back together again next summer. I hope all of you have a great next couple months before we all are together again for the cruise in February!!! I can't wait...and I know you can't either as we talk about it QUITE OFTEN. haha. I love you girls...

We missed a few of the other girls in this picture...Mariah, Kellie, Laurie, Sam and Sarah.

XOXO!

Chesapeake Bay: Take 2

2009-08-06T15:32:00.000-06:00

Well last Sunday we did a little more research on the internet hoping to find a MUCH better beach to lay on as opposed to Kent Island. Alas, SANDY POINT BEACH. Clean sand, no washed up "monsters", and a crabbing area- which was Josh's reason for going.

A few other couples wanted to come so we decided to make a day out it. We headed to a seafood restaurant called Cantler's in Annapolis which was right on the bay. They had extemely fresh crab seeing as how they could basically walk their catch up to the crab boilers themselves. I wasn't too hungry so I got a kids crab cake- it was pretty good but Josh's was...oh my- A MOUND of mussels, oysters and 3 whole crab and an ear of corn. Although, I was quite suprised how much/or little meat you can get from one crab. The guys pretty much hammered the crab to crumbs trying to find all the meat. My one crab cake must have come from 50 crabs!

Here's a group shot of everyone that went that day.

After lunch, we headed to the beach. We found a bait store and Josh bought a crab net and some chicken necks...TASTY! (yuck.) My camera died at this point so all these pictures, I bummed from Sam and Tash. Thanks girls! haha.

Not sure where Josh was in this picture...probably playing with the crab he caught. (Yes, he did catch one. He can now say his summer is complete.)

Speaking of catching crab...look what else we caught. A ball of goo! A jellyfish. None of us girls swam after this.

We, well Zach, caught something else too but I dont think anyone will believe me. Good thing I have a picture for proof! What do you get with boys, seagulls, a slipknot and Doritos?

A SEAGULL KITE! He literally caught a seagull by the ankle. Wait, do birds even have ankles?! Watching this was probably the most entertaining part of our day. Oh wait...

Now, the day is complete. It was such a fun day but we were exhausted and the sun was going down. Time to head home...

Just thoughts...

2009-07-28T15:40:00.000-06:00

I don't know why but somedays, I get very contemplative. These past few days, I've had alot of time to reflect on my life, people who've influenced me, trials, blessings and family. I recently had a dream and I have them pretty often of my grandparents who've passed away some years ago. I like to think they're just checking in on me to see how Im doing or to at least let me see their faces. When they died- I always worried I would forget alot of the little things that I loved about them, like my grandpa's chuckle when he laughed or my grandma's sense of humor.

My grandmother was paralyzed on her left side ever since I was a baby so I never saw her walk on her own or heard her speak full and clear sentences. She was a beautician for years before her stroke so she/and I loved to do her make-up and paint her nails. They were my biggest example of christlike love, especially my grandpa who bent over backwards to make her his first priority above himself to see that she had what she needed and was fully taken care of. After he died, though I was young, I remember my heart broke for her because I couldn't comprehend the void that left her.

Now that Im married I can imagine just an ounce of how that must have felt. I don't need to rely on Josh for every need (YET!) but with him, I know what it's like to have a husband that is there for you at any given moment knowing that if you ever needed anything that he would gladly do so. And I for him. My grandparents remind me that physically we may not be together forever but spiritually we will be, same for my family. I hate being so far away from them- I haven't seen them since April and won't be able to see them until Christmas. It breaks my heart some days knowing I won't get my hugs or hear their laughs but I know we're still family and though we may be far from eachother for awhile, that I still love them and would do anything for any one of them. Its such a blessing to have eternal relationships, whether its family, spouses or friends and for the impact they have on you as a human being and the world around you. Just think about that and see if you would be the person you are today without having that example in your life...

I hope that I can someday be the example that my grandparents were to me. xoxo

and the WINNER is...

2009-07-23T16:41:00.000-06:00

THANK YOU Tash!!! I feel a sense of completion now and can move on to the next phase in my life now that I have my friends list posted. Thanks for your VERY CLEAR instructions because I obviously couldn't have figured it out. And yes, my feeling of being an idiot is now setting in. I think it's time for a coke... thanks doll. LOVE YA!

This site is my demon...

2009-07-23T10:55:00.000-06:00

So I have been working on figuring this site out STILL but I have officially come to my brick wall. Please don't laugh at me, I'm in need of some serious assistance. I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME, figure out how to add friends' blogs to my page! I've never been so frustrated. I know it has to be really easy because typically that's what happens to me...and then I feel like an idiot. Trust me. If somebody would feel so kind as to enlighten me on how to do this I will be forever thankful.

"Survivor: Chesapeake Bay"

2009-07-20T10:17:00.000-06:00

So yesterday, Josh and I wanted to get out and explore what we haven't seen yet. Not much is left on our list of "must-see's." We packed an ice chest for a picnic and headed out to Chesapeake Bay, Josh was dying to try his hand at crabbing. We got out to Kent Island thinking we would find tons of bait shops so that we could get our crab nets but to our amazement, there wasnt a bait shop within 10 miles of the beach we were on. Very disappointing. Being the clever, won't leave until we kill something kind of man that Josh is- rigged up his own little crustacean catcher. All he needed was a petrified log, string and chicken meat. I know if we were ever stranded on an island, we could pretty much live out the rest of our lives healthy and happy (well, most of us. I would need my lotion and perfumes. Oh and my toothbrush...and a hairbrush. A razor. Oh and I can't forget my pina colada chapstick!)

He didn't catch anything but we know their down there! Were going to try again soon but next time, we're doing it MY way.

We saw some of the most prehistoric "crab" I've ever seen in my life. I've heard of the Horseshoe Crab before but don't think I've ever seen one in person. Holy army-tank of a crab! Most washed up dead on the shore but Josh managed to find a live one and prides himself for giving the crab a second chance at life. They had to weigh at least 10lbs, the shell felt like it was made of metal, and that tail of his is really un-nerving. It had to be twice the size of my head!

I never got in the water because of this but overall, it was a great day! I enjoyed spending a day in the sun with my babe.

Next time, we're not coming home empty handed...

My Husband-

2009-07-13T17:38:00.000-06:00

Words cannot express my appreciation for Josh. Since we've been together and more so after being married, I have never been happier and a lot of it attributes to him and his sense of humor. Due to just being a woman, I'm not always necessarily in the greatest of moods but he always manages to brighten my day everyday. He's such a hard worker, has great patience with me and his job, super motivated...most days, he always makes sure that I know how much he loves me, supports decisions I make and I love his enthusiasm for wanting kids- its hilarious.
I love you babe and thank you for being who you are.

4th of July- Platinum Style

2009-07-13T17:12:00.001-06:00

I know it's way past the 4th of July but here is some pictures of the festivities that day. The guys worked until 3 or 4 and then met down at the pool for a little splish splash. The guys played games and had contests of who could hold their breath the longest and belly flop contest...

OUCH!...but he won!

Me and baby Mason...cutest little baby. I'm surprised he's not puking on me in this picture because every other time I hold him, its like he loves my reaction to puke so he saves it for me.

A few of us wives cheering on the boys...Tash, Me and Sam (and Summer in development!)

Crazy Court, haha! I love these pics of you. You crack me up.

We wanted to go to the National Mall to watch the Capitol's fireworks but due to traffic, we were pretty much trapped in College Park. We would have never made it in time. But nonetheless, it was an enjoyable day with everyone.

Flashing Lights, City Nights, Busy Streets...NEW YORK CITY!

2009-06-14T13:44:00.000-06:00

Just to warn you before you read, this is going to be a long post! We had a day and a half to cover NYC so I was snapping pictures like a madwoman! The girls and I headed out Friday morning about 7 to the Big Apple. Josh was dead asleep so I just gave him a kiss and told him I loved him, he mumbled back what I THINK might have been that he loved me too and that I could buy whatever I wanted (I actually added that myself but I'd like to think he would say that if he was a little more coherent.)

The drive wasn't far, it takes about 4 hours from here so it wasn't too bad of a drive. Although, being the smart girls that we are, didn't actually drive. There's a big charter bus called DC2NY that took us, it was so nice and so convenient! We stayed in Times Square at the Marriott Marquis- it was so nice! THANKS KELLIE FOR HOOKIN' THAT UP! :)

I've seen cool elevators in my day but these were literally straight out of the Jetson's! They fly so fast. This is a view from our hotel...

On Friday, we got there about 1. We had to walk about 10 blocks to our hotel and here's a few pics that I saw along the way...

Liz, this ones for you. Project Runway!

And FINALLY...

It was so fun!!! Although I got pretty sick of dodging people all the time and did manage to say a few things to people that I probably shouldn't have but overall it was everything I dreamed it would be.

We saw Radio City Music Hall and the cute LOVE sign that we see everywhere

We walked to Central Park but only managed to walk maybe 50 steps in before we headed back out to see other stuff.

We saw Trump Tower, St. Patrick's Cathedral- which is amazing- I could have a blog just for that with as many pictures as I took!

Here's a video of St. Patricks. It is so beautiful! You may have to watch it with your head tilted, sorry! :)

This is a painting of Mary at her alter that is said to have been painted in 1537.

After the cathedral, we went across the street to Rockefeller Plaza

After Rockefeller, we took the subway to Canal St. in Chinatown which has all the bootleg purses, movies, jewelry, sunglasses, perfume...I could continue. It's honestly like an undercover secret service operation when you want to see a purse! The vendors stand on the corners of streets in sunglasses, hats, in all black clothing and carry in a black plastic bag with only a printed piece of paper that shows what the purses look like. When you want to see it in person, they make a phone call and have their boss bring it to you in a black plastic bag and tell you to not take it out. AND THEN, in their little shops, there are 4 walls...only one isn't a wall at all. Its a secret door to their BASEMENT and its full of purses down there! I'm surprised they don't make you sign your life away to forget what you just saw and to tell no one!

After that little operation, we walked down the street to Little Italy.

After that, we grabbed some dinner at a burger joint and headed back to the hotel. It was a LONG day. Im almost done, I promise!

The next morning we woke up, grabbed some breakfast and ate on Times Square. Literally. They keep one side of the road blocked now so there's tons of people just relaxing in lawn chairs in the street watching all the ads and crazy people.

After breakfast, we headed out to see Lady Liberty!

This is both the Brooklyn and Manhattan Bridges

That was about the last of the sights for me on that trip. Please excuse the lack of enthusiasm in some parts as I've seem to come home with an unwanted souvenier, a stomach bug. I think. I just don't feel good, thats all I know. Anyway, hope you enjoyed it!

National Portrait Museum and the Holocaust Museum

2009-06-08T17:18:00.000-06:00

On Saturday, we headed out to the National Portrait Museum which is in Chinatown (which is hardly Chinatown at all besides the "Made in China" labels on clothes!) The museum was cool for about the 1st hour but I think we preferred to go look in all the shops. So we did. The only thing I found really cool about seeing all these portraits, and I don't know why Im so intrigued by this, but I love seeing what dates these portraits were painted...some from the 1500's and they were all originals of course. Its cool to see the characteristics of the paint after it's been on a canvas for that long. Weird I know. They also had a portrait of Brigham Young.

In the modern art wing of the museum they had a Aztec themed tinfoil exhibit. I heard by another guy that it was a homeless man that did this but the description didn't say anything about it. Also they had several animals that were made in the 1950's out of old bottle caps- the man sure loved his tonic water and coke.

On Sunday everyone rode the metro out to the Holocaust Museum. It was incredible! It obviously was such a somber and heavy atmosphere. I've always been so intrigued by the Holocaust and survival stories, not so much the medical experiments that we're performed on the Jews. I always wondered what was Hitler's reasoning behind this event and one quote that I remember from him was that he believed Jews to be a parasitic race that thrived off of others and he was quoted in 1942 saying "we will regain our health by eliminating the Jews." So after being named Chancellor of Germany, he killed at least 6 million men, women and children. He would tell his army to kill mercilessly and reflect no emotion.

As you enter the museum, they give you a small 3-page booklet of a male/female. Mine was Channa Morgensztern and she was a mother of 5 children who lived outside of Warsaw. Her community was taken over by Nazi's, her son managed to escape to the Far East but her and the rest of her children were deported to the Treblinka concentration camp. It makes it so tough emotionally to put a background to one individual and her family and to read what she had to go through herself and her not knowing what would happen to her family. I didn't find out if she lived or died but maybe if I do a little research, Ill find out. This is "the Tower of Faces." full of pictures that were seized from homes that were invaded by the SS.

There were TONS of shoes from both old and young, hair brushes, eating and kitchen utensils. Inmate uniforms, some were small children sized. It was very sad. For anyone that hasn't read "Night" by Elie Weisel I highly recommend it, he was a survivor and also lost his father to the Holocaust. Its a great book! I also watched Valkyrie with Tom Cruise- it's about an assassination attempt on Hitler. Did you know there were 15 assassination attempts on Hitler, all by his own Reich (army.)

Walking out of the museum, it feels like a million pounds is lifted off of you. My body literally hurt. I can't imagine how the survivors felt walking out of the camps after liberation.

"the world must know." -Brown Little

Jordan Michelle-

2009-06-05T23:56:00.000-06:00

Happy Graduation morning mydear!!!

Can you believe the day is finally here? I can't imagine how Mom feels at moments like this and how she manages to contain herself because I'm over here bawling like a baby at 2am.

I am so proud of you and everything you've accomplished, you've become quite a determined woman that's for sure. I have loved seeing you grow-up and watch your confidence rise as you accomplish goals and tackle obstacles almost flawlessly. I remember being in Cosmetology and the day you told me that you wanted to do it too and here it is, years later, licensed by flying colors.

I don't know why this affects me like this but I've always been this way about all of you girls, even Devin and she's the more logical one of us both- but everytime one of you move on to the next phase in your life, I get so excited, so nervous, worried and protective of ya'll only because I know how hard it can be sometimes. I know life is all about growth and success but sometimes I wish I could put ya'll at the top of the mountain myself. Don't let fear scare you, don't let obstacles prevent you, don't let discouragement discourage you. Make sure you always remember to pray, afterall, He knows what's in store for you more than you do and can help when life gets to be overwhelming. You know who you are though and what you're capable of. If an opportunity presents itself and you aren't exactly ready or you miss it all together, don't worry about it, just watch for the next one. They will come and go your entire life. If you have a goal and it seems completely out of reach, well you've already reached it in setting that goal- the next step is to run, run as fast as your legs can carry you and don't stop. Last of all, make sure you guard your heart. You'll know when it's okay to let it go.

I admire you Jordan, I always have. You're 6 years younger than me but you're definatly alot stronger than I am. It's so hard being so far from you girls, I feel like I need to be there still to give ya'll my advice or help you get ready for things or to cheer you on. It's definatly bitter sweet. Just remember, keep your priorities, your priorities. Okay, time to go or you'll be late. I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you. Now, go show the world what youre made of and I'll always be right here if you ever need me.

I love you-
Alleybe.

Oh Georgetown, how I love thee...

2009-06-03T16:44:00.000-06:00

For this reason, I am now a cupcake fan! Never really was a "cakey" type person but OH MY...words cannot describe. I got a red velvet, cream cheese frosting and a cute purple heart candy to top it off. I LONG for my next cup-o-cake.

Dev, I'm going to be the next cupcake kid- looks and all!

Shopping there is fabulous as well...Anthropologie, H&M, Steve Madden, Sephora, MAC just to name a few. All store front shops and boutiques in old antique buildings. This picture isn't very good but at least you can get an idea of what it looks like. Pennsylvania Avenue runs straight through here, actually this picture is on Pennsylvania. Such a cute town but unbelievably crowded. Personally...it was WELL worth it.

Hard Rock, Lincoln, and a Shout Out.

2009-06-03T16:18:00.000-06:00

Tash and I met a friend of hers that she taught with back home in Utah who brought her family out for a summer trip. We ate at the Hard Rock and it was DELICIOUS! They were the cutest family, such CUTE kids!

The next door over from the Hard Rock was Ford's Theatre where Lincoln was assassinated.

Right across the street from the Ford's Theatre was the home where Lincoln died. I would have loved to take the tour but there was probably 12 charter buses of high school kids and a line a million miles long. Next time.

SHOUT OUT TO C-to the-ANDACE!!! haha. I love you but this reminded me of all your old MySpace pics. I always thought they were hilarious. Word CDogg.

Who ever came up with these and what was their inspiration? Blinds? I don't know but its a little annoying when your eyelashes poke through the slats and you can't exactly blink. I just loved the patriotism of them. God Bless America.

yay for missing our stop on the metro.

Theeeee SUN will come out TOMORROW, TOMORROW...

2009-06-03T15:50:00.000-06:00

WHY on EARTH does it rain so much here! When the sun comes out, the girls come out...to the pool! Monday, Tash and I went to the pool and the sun felt so nice. With Josh being outside all day long he just loves to keep the thermostat down so that I literally shiver myself to exhaustion. So when he's not there to cuddle up next to, I try to go out and warm up as much as I can so that our "icebox" apartment feels decent.

Just documenting our summer! These pool pictures will probably occur more often since the waters starting to warm up and sun is starting to shine brighter. I love Tash to death, we're alot alike so it's always fun to have someone a few doors down that's typically down to do whatever or talk about whatever just like I am. She's a doll. ;)

I thought I used to tan quick...until I saw her tan after the first 3 hours. Tash, you have put me to shame.

and the clouds opened up and God said, I Hate You Alfalfa...

2009-05-25T14:55:00.000-06:00

Happy Memorial Day!!! Yay for only an hour by the pool!...AND THEN...

Btw, the title is from "The Little Rascals..." one of my fav's.

Unknown Soldiers Tomb Facts

2009-05-25T08:43:00.000-06:00

I just came across this. Its a Q&A of facts about the guards and procedures at the Unknown Soldiers tomb. Unbelievable!

http://keneva.com/TombOfTheUnknownSoldierFacts.htm

My Day at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonians

2009-05-24T18:07:00.001-06:00

On Friday, the girls and I went to see Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonians which, if anyones seen it yet, made me want to steal a name badge of a security guard and go see whats underneath it all. Supposedly its 3-stories deep of old archived documents and "objects."
This picture was the Smithsonian Castle which is basically used as an information center but had a few little exhibits like furniture from 17-1800's. They also had the set from Night at the Museum...

I took a short little video of a room in the castle and the architecture was so beautiful!

This is a little indian shoe exhibit from a few different tribes. I had to keep reminding myself that everything in the museums are originals- so crazy.

I thought the little ones were so cute.

After the Castle, we went to the Museum of Natural History- I can't believe how much stuff is in there! You could spend all day and still not see everything! Im going to just post a few pictures.

This is a video of the lobby from the 2nd floor balcony of the museum.

First we went to, what I like to call, "DINO VALLEY!" They just called it the Dinosaur exhibit, boring if you ask me.

I was waiting for Rexy to play fetch but I think only the guards do that after midnight.

Next we went to the Mammal exhibit- that was really cool if you like to see real (but dead) animals looking like their going to pounce on you or eat you alive.

Dexter and his little friend.

After the mammals, we went to the Gem exhibit, which I like to call "Heaven." They had the Hope Diamond which a is 45-carat blue diamond on a platinum chain and the chain has 45 diamonds around it. It didn't say how much it was worth but I think I preferred not to know. I probably would have thrown up if I knew how much it was. My thought is why would anyone donate that to the exhibit...Hello?! Cash that baby in!
The diamond belonged to Harry Winston and MAILED this diamond to the museum and insured the package for only $150. I think I'd have to be institutionalized with anxiety until I knew it got there safe!

They had a map of recent diamond findings and believe it or not, Dallas was on the map. Mom and Dad, when Josh and I get back to Dallas, we have Family Home Evening covered...digging for diamonds in the backyard!

Check these diamonds out! These would make a great anniversary present babe! haha, I'm just kidding...no but really. ;)

Time to head home- this is the Metro- basically the only safe bet to get around.

That was about the end of our tour for the day, it was crowded and hot- we were all ready to get home and hit the pool. We covered 2 of the 19 Smithsonian's (I think that's what they said!)

I'll post again soon. XOXO!

Our First Home

2009-05-14T11:48:00.001-06:00

This is the Agricultural Research Building...or something like that- (view from our parking garage.) Its really pretty grounds and every freaking building here in DC is colonial style. Kinda cool but not exactly my fav. This is next door to the left of our complex and Ikea is on the right.

This is the inside of our lil' apartment.

View walking in the front door with the kitchen to the left.

The weirdest shaped room ever...

View from our balcony...please excuse the construction. :)

There ya have it...

Arlington National Cemetery

2009-05-11T10:05:00.001-06:00

Instead of going to the Holocaust Museum, we figured we should see the sights that require being outside while it's still nice weather. We headed to the Arlington National Cemetery. Still a very humbling site! Josh and I could not get over how many headstones there were and how perfectly inline each row was. There are currently over 300,000 burial sites with 6,400 burials each year which is about equal to 28 a day! There are slaves, veterans from pre-civil war days and every American battle since then. It became officially designated as a military cemetery in 1864. It was beautiful with the whitest tombstones and the greenest grass- the landscaping was a perfect backdrop to such a hallowed environment.

We walked to JFK and Jackie Onassis's burial site as well as the Tomb of the Unknown Soldiers. At the Unknown Soldiers tomb, they change the guard every 30 minutes so we stayed for about an hour and watched it twice. The guards are so precise, almost like a second hand on a clock. It's very moving to see people with such honor and respect for our country that it almost made me feel guilty. Everyone knows that our country and the government has its flaws, some greater than others, but there are 200+ acres of people who died defending it despite personal opinions towards those who led this country. They fought for families, rights, legacies, and freedom. All of which I feel I take for granted most days. It was a very inspirational day. I'm just going to post pictures because I feel my words won't do it justice.

JFK and Jackie O's site.

If you can't read this: "Beneath this stone repose the bones of two thousand one hundred and eleven unknown soldiers gathered after the war from the fields of Bull Run and the route to Rappahannock. Their remains could not be identified. But their names and deaths are recorded in the archives of their country; and it's grateful citizens honor them as their noble army of martyrs. May they rest in peace. -September A.D. 1866"

Tomb of the Unknown Soldier-

This is the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier where there's actually 3 unknown soldiers buried. There is a guard at all times and they rotate out every 30 minutes.

Part 1- Changing of the Guard

Part 2- Changing of the Guard

I'm very thankful to our country and those who've fought to provide what we have today.

Love from D.C.-

Rainy Day Adventures

2009-05-08T12:21:00.000-06:00

So being that it has rained consistently for the past 2 weeks, ask me why I don't think to bring an umbrella anywhere I go?! On Tuesday, us wifey's thought we would figure out the Metro (subway system) and head out to DC. It was so fun! I don't know how being several stories underground manages to make you feel so important and apart the the cities rush to get to the next destination but it was quite an adventure! I loved to bet who was going to make it as we watched people running to bail in the doors before they close and those who manage to make it halfway in and squirm their way through the door before it blasts off at 70mph. I am amazed that being 24, and usually can figure things out pretty well on my own- couldn't figure out how to read the Metro maps for the life of me! I noticed tons of kids just jumping off and on and knowing exactly where they wanted to go and how dumb I felt all of a sudden. Anyway, I got over it once we got to the National Mall and seeing how majestic and big everything is....and then it dumps rain. YAY for touristy poncho's!!! This is just a few of us, me, Dresden and Bri...

As we were walking out of the souvenir tent for our ponchos, we noticed cops had blocked off all the roads near the Monument. Weird. But then again we are in D.C.- maybe they route traffic during rush hour. Eh, anyway?! THEN...like bats out of hell, the CIA, cops, ambulances, and motorcycles cops come flying down the street from as far as the eye could see! All of this is happening right in front of us as I'm fumbling to get my video on my camera going. If only I could tell them to hold on just ONE second and possibly even say "Cheese!" would be nice but unfortunately I manage to miss some of it. I did get the last got last half though...now lets see if I can post it.

It may not look as exciting in this video, probably because I missed half of it, but it really was exciting! After seeing that, we head to Jefferson monument- I can't believe how beautiful all the monuments are. Maybe its just the symbolism of them all and the precision of every inch of a 30+ ft statue. Just by a few quotes that were written on the wall- Jefferson was a very wise and profound man that was definatly led by his faith in God. When I took this video, I was in a little rush but you can pause it to read the quotes if you'd like.

Because of the rain and being so cold- we didn't see much more than that but we'll be back several times throughout the rest of the summer. Ill post more of "Allayna's Adventures" then. We plan on going to the Holocaust Museum on Sunday after church- that will be my favorite sight , I'm sure! I'm so intrigued by the survivor stories and the faith the Jews had at such a completely evil and desperate time in their life. I'll probably bawl like a baby. Until then though..."I bid thee farewell." (attempting the salutations of our forefathers.) :)

(Im such a dork, Ill understand if you never read my posts again...)

God Bless America!!!

2009-05-04T16:14:00.001-06:00

Well, we have finally made it to DC for Platinum sales this summer! What a DRIVE! Let me just paint you a picture- from Dallas to Utah we drove a Uhaul to bring all my things up. The cab of that thing was pretty uncomfortable. No reclining seats, cramped for space and then an ice chest of snacks for the road, when you want cool air it blows a blizzard, it smelled funny and the floor board on the passenger side would get so hot that it would burn my feet. Im actually pretty thankful for that- it was my only source of heat for that entire trip. I felt so bad for Josh, he really didn't want me to drive the Uhaul but he was so determined to drive straight through the night. When he ABSOLUTELY couldn't do it anymore, he finally let me drive but I don't think he dared to close his eyes. Me, driving only lasted about 60 miles before he said to pull over. haha. His excuse, "we both could use a nap." I had slept halfway to that point, I wasnt exactly sleepy at all! Its okay, I thanked him for not letting me drive it longer than that- who knows if we would have ever made here.

The day we got to Utah, he and I unpacked the Uhaul. I again felt so bad for Josh. Halfway through unloading, I just sat down and bawled. I couldn't lift another thing! I couldnt believe how much stuff I had accumulated from having my own place for just a year! He also wouldn't let me forget how much stuff I had. I literally think Heavenly Father picked me up though and gave me more strength than I really had (I think Josh said a prayer so he wouldn't have to do it himself!) We finished unloading, showered, got some sleep and was on the road again to DC. This time in much better driving conditions. Josh's Jeep felt like a luxury compared to that Uhaul, so I was alot less moody. It's actually way nice, I love that car! Our first leg of the trip was from Utah to Kansas City which was where Josh served his mission. We stopped to visit a few of his families that he taught, they were all so sweet! We also stayed at a motel just for a few hours to get a nap and shower and then jumped in the car that night to finish this drive up. We saw beautiful scenery driving through Pennsylvania with all the rolling green farmland and white, old churches in the background. It was a scene from a postcard! We drove into College Park (where we actually live) around 4 the next afternoon. It feels so good to be here! Unfortunatly, it has been cold and rainy since the day we got here and that was over a week ago. Bummer.

This summer is going to be so fun, Im so excited! Unfortunatly Josh has to work alot so when we can, we plan to see alot of different things like the Smithsonians, Holocaust Museum, the National Mall, learning the Metro system (I'm so intimidated by that thing!) but...for the week of being here, I already feel more patriotic!!

In Josh's office, there are quite a few other wives who are so sweet and I love to pal around with- we also plan on doing more sightseeing while the boys are out. I'd have to say that Im really proud of Josh- he's done so well already and its only the first week. He's so motivated and can accomplish anything he puts his mind to...one of the many qualities I admire about him.

So, this is officially the first post after being married and I'd have to say that I couldn't have been blessed with a better man to spend the rest of my life with. Im so excited to see what life has in store for us! Its so fun right now for us to dream about the future and all the "what-if's and "what would you do's" but we have set so many goals and plans in the meantime that we would like to accomplish and even things to learn before we get to those different milestones.

I don't have any of our wedding pics accessible right now but as soon as I do, I will post them. Need to get dinner going! xoxo