A Very Unwelcomed Event...

So, as I mentioned in my last post a little blurb about how I felt like my birth control implant was messing me up...well it did quite a little number to me this week. For the past, almost 2 months, I have felt extreme discomfort fairly consistantly throughout the day, everyday. I had a really strong nervous feeling...butterflies times a million for no absolute reason. My heart would race and pound really fast and really hard which made me dizzy and light-headed. I also would shake, almost like I had the cold chills except that I was really hot! My shakes were so bad that at night, it would wake Josh up and he's no light sleeper. It literally drained my energy everyday.

After dealing with this for so long, I had enough. I scheduled an appointment in Dallas with my "girly-doctor" which happened to be on my birthday. All of this happened also while all my sisters and their husbands/fiance were intown from Utah for our August birthday celebrations. So bummed! Anyway, at my appointment, I told my doctor all of my symptoms and that I needed this out of my arm asap. Well, she wouldn't do it. She drew about 4 viles of blood to test for a few things but I knew it wasn't going to return any results. I was devastated. In my gut, ever since the beginning, I knew my birth control was the cause. Well I went home...and cried. I didn't want to have this anymore. We need to finish up our summer here in Houston, prepare for our long-haul home, school starts and we're leaving for Cancun in less than 3 weeks! I want to feel like myself and feel good for another new semester!

After celebrating my dad and I's birthday on Monday on the lake, we went home and for some reason kept feeling this sharp, quick little pulse of pain on the left side of my chest. I ignored it, I was so tired and just went to bed. About 5am, I woke up with my heart racing again except this time, I literally thought my heart would give out because it was pounding so hard. I started to get up to go to the restroom and the entire room started spinning. I was so light-headed. I made my way to my mom and dad's room and laid down next to my mom to have her check my pulse rate. Luckily she works in the cardiac department of our hospital. She felt my heart and rolled over to wake my dad up to have him feel it. Immediately, we were getting dressed to go to the emergency room. I was terrified! My dad said he's never felt a heart beat so hard that it was moving my whole ribcage. All along, I knew this was my birth control. The nurse put about 12 patches on me and hooked me up for an EKG. They also drew another 5-6 viles of blood for more testing. We were there for about 4 hours and the doctor said everything was normal except to get the birth control out! Thank you, Dr! I knew it!!! My gyno doctor is in the same hospital so I went upstairs right after I was released to tell her what had happened. She still didn't believe the birth control was the cause but I didn't care, I just told her to take it out and she did!

Ever since Tuesday, I haven't had any episodes and feel pretty good except for that I'm extremely tired and will be until my hormones balance out again. But that's normal. I've been a little emotional (not from hormones) but because it really touches my heart how my parents dropped everything to help me get this taken care of and how loving and supportive my family is in times of need. I'm also so very thankful that my Heavenly Father has watched over me and blessed me quite a bit throughout this entire ordeal. I'm so thankful for all the love and concern from family and loved ones, I can't ask for any better people in my life...

Just a lil' update...

Well, our time here in Texas is almost up. I'm so sad but also ready to get back to Utah to finish up school there. A lot of people have asked about our plans for the next few years so why not share it with everyone?! Here goes...

As fast has this summer has come and gone, we'll be done here in Houston by the end of the month and headed back to Utah. Not looking forward to the drive but it's inevitable. We have one more semester at Snow College in Ephraim and then by Christmas break, we plan to move up to Layton for another year of school at Weber State. Josh has been really excited to go to Weber, they have the only Technical Sales program on this side of the Mississippi. He wants to pursue medical sales as his ultimate career, as of right now. He kinda waivers back and forth between a few different things but it's medical sales for right now. As soon as we're done in Layton, we will be heading back to the Great State of Texas, buying a house and getting our roots dug in. We've been looking online and getting MILLIONS of ideas for when we do buy a house. We're dying to buy a fixer-upper and do what we want to the place, I'm so excited, I can hardly stand it.

As much as I love that Josh has this opportunity for a job with Platinum and it really has been very good to us, I am just not the type to pack up and move every 6-8 months. Im a consistant type of person and it's hard to keep a routine under the circumstances. Which kinda leads me to the next tidbit.

I've had alot of anxiety lately. Most of it is unexplained, like, I don't know the cause for it because I'm not really stressed or under pressure. I've done a lot of research and it's either Generalized Anxiety Disorder or my birth control implant. But it just comes over me several times a day during a bad week and several times a week for a good week. I've never had it this bad. It makes me so weak, nauseated, light-headed and really emotional. I would even wake up in the middle of the night shaking so bad that it wakes Josh up, and that's no easy task! To clear the air, several people have asked if I was pregnant. No, I most definatly am not. I hate it though, I've almost been kinda reclusive the last month or so. I get so nervous to go out with everyone and have a break-down. I felt so bad for Josh a few weeks ago. He had the hardest day ever and I already wasn't feeling too good. I called my mom, this was before Josh got home, and I was crying and sobbing like a baby- I couldn't control it! It felt like a panic attack because I almost couldn't breathe. My mom kinda talked me through it and I was okay for the time being but as soon as Josh walked through the door, it started all over again. It was a long night to say the least. If anyone has any tips, ideas or advice, it's greatly welcomed.

Overall though, this has been a great summer. Josh has done really well selling. Leo loves it here as opposed to our basement apartment in Utah. He loves sitting on the balcony watching the birds and soaking up the sun. I have loved being relatively close to my family this summer. We've been able to spend a lot of time together and have LOVED every minute of it. Next week, Devin and her boyfriend, Dallas and Jordan and her husband, Blaine are all driving here for a big August birthday bash. Jordan's birthday is today, Josh's is on the 11th, my dad and I share a birthday on the 16th and Dallas's is on the 23rd. We figured that since were all in town and my mom's birthday is Sept. 10th that she could pretend to be an August baby as well and celebrate hers since we'll all be in town. I'll update party pics as soon as possible...

Anyway, that's our story for now. Next time I update, it may be from Utah...

Goodbye Texas, I heart you.

Mr. and Mrs. Buhanan!

Jared and Lydia are finally married!!!

The wedding was beautiful, the bride glowing and Jared grinning from ear to ear! I was so glad I could be there! Growing up, this group of us girls; probably 12+ were inseparable. We've all laughed together, seen each other at our worst and been there for each other at our best. We were and still are the best of friends and I would do anything for any one of them!

I love Lydia to death and was so glad that she has found Jared who has made her sooo happy! She totally deserves it. Jared is the greatest guy...aside from my husband although I do think Josh agrees! We love you guys and are so happy for you two.

Joel Osteen

Last Saturday night, 6/26/10, a few of us wives set for some inspiration. We had heard that Joel Osteen was having a Saturday night service at his arena-style Lakewood Church. Growing up in Texas, I had heard a lot about him not to mention he's been on Oprah and on Barbara Walters list of the top 10 most fascinating people. He had to be good, so why not?!


When we got there, we were trying to figure out where we should sit and this usher asked if we wanted to sit up front. So we said sure, thinking we would just be somewhere in the front of MANY sections in the church. She literally walked us to the very front...3rd row, right in front of him to be exact. And then here come all the lights, the band, the clapping...haha. You could definitely tell I was a visitor because I was tired of clapping after the first 10 minutes! It was really entertaining though! I honestly loved the music, especially the lyrics-it was really a great service!


Joel and his wife, Victoria talked a lot about getting rid of people in your life that weigh you down. As harsh as that sounds, it really made sense! Our life is too short to drag others along who try to tear us down along the way. Our lives and circle of friends should include those who will help build you up, help you reach your goals and motivate you when you hit a rough spot. One thing that really has stuck with me is just a simple phrase that is beneficial to all of us in any endeavor we are pursuing- "Today is the Day!" Whether it's obtaining a healthy lifestyle, quitting addictions, stopping any negative self perceptions...anything! Whatever you want to work on, "Today is the day to...(insert goal here.)" I took quite a bit of notes, well quotes really. After the service, our usher who sat us, asked if we wanted to meet Pastor Joel. So we met him after the service at his book signing for his new book that was recently released. I didnt want to buy his book (don't worry, I didnt tell him that) so he signed my journal instead! How cool!

Tomato.Tamato.

We have our first tomato!!!

My Idea of Heaven...

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My dessert every night this week

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5 days

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A much needed workout and regret of ever starting this



(On second thought, I only eat a spoonful as my serving so really, I don't think I do regret this.)

An addendum to my previous post...

So I previously posted about my Top 10 Favorite Things but then realized that my list wasn't quite complete. In fact, my MOST ABSOLUTE favorite thing isn't actually a thing at all...it's my husband.

I decided that I wanted to do a TOP 10 FAVORITES list about him and why I am so in love with him. (in no particular order)

#10- I don't consider myself to be very humorous but I love when I make him laugh. I love his laugh and especially his "crows feet" wrinkles around his eyes when he smiles. It's a trait of a happy person and I never want those to disappear.

#9- I love how selfless he is although it sometimes turns into an argument. Haha! He always wants what I want because he knows it will make me happy. Don't bother asking him what he wants though because he'll just say "Whatever you want babe!" Then I get frustrated...but really, he just wants me to be happy and I appreciate that.

#8- I love his cooking! I've gained a few pounds since we've been married but he seriously is like an undiscovered gourmet chef. He loves to cook, in fact he IS the cook in our family until the summer's come around. He makes real food, none of that boxed or bagged crap. Which I'm so thankful for...I love fresh, healthy food. I feel bad though because during the summer's he loses weight. He always says it's because of all the walking and sweating he does everyday but honestly, I don't think I can make enough food for the boy! My dinners of veggies, salads, chicken, fish, etc doesn't quite work for my little carnivore.

#7- He gets so cuddly when he's sleepy, I love it!

#6- He loves my family. It's as if my parents have been his parents all along, they have such a good relationship. I think he talks to all of my family more than I do! (Sorry Mom and Dad, I'll work on that...)

#5- Most days I don't feel so beautiful. I wake up with my hair all over the place, kinda grumpy and haven't brushed my teeth yet but that never stops him from telling me how beautiful I am. He is so full of compliments and is very thoughtful. There have been a few days though that I've been so gross that I almost think he's full of crap when he tells me. I'm sorry babe but it's okay to be honest, lol! <3

#4- He's just like a big kid! He cannot go to the pool without his goggles. I love it too, he always makes me laugh! Any opportunity he has in the ocean, I have to kiss him "goodbye" before he gets in because I don't see him again until it's time to leave. He loves "exploring" and collecting things he finds! When we got home from the Caribbean, his entire backpack and swimsuit pockets were full of sand, shells and rocks. As mom always said, "check the pockets before putting it in the washer!" I now understand...

#3- Josh is such a hard worker! This job opportunity with Platinum may sound like a good deal with only having to work during the summer but it is probably one of the harder jobs anyone can have! Extremely hot, long days. The only day off is Sunday and mentally, he has to overcome a lot of obstacles each day to be able to achieve his goals. He sets high goals too which shows his amount of motivation to earn the money we need to provide for a family someday. That's his main focus and I completely respect him and adore him for all of his hard work for us.

#2- I give him such a hard time for this and I shouldn't because it's his hobby but he loves to hunt and fish. Don't get me wrong, I love to fish too. I have really had to adjust my perspective on this and it has kind of opened my eyes to another layer of who Josh is. He is just like his grandfather who is prepared for the Apocalypse! If there was war on U.S. ground, he is totally prepared to find shelter in the middle of nowhere and would know how to live off the land and provide for ourselves. I feel safe in knowing that if it really came to that, our family would be perfectly fine!

#1- My number one, FAVORITE THING is that he makes time for "us." We love spending days together whether its a rainy Sunday and laying in bed watching movies all day or going on a little road trip. We have so much fun together and are completely content doing anything or nothing at all.

I couldn't have asked for a better man to spend my life with and can only imagine the adventures we're going to have. I know that no matter where life takes us or how rough it may get, we have each other and that's all we need.